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late hatched Autist invader on the Wet Coast of Canada, child of the 60s and believed it all. The Hatching is sprinkled through both blogs, and the theory starts with spanking in 2014 and evolves to what, I guess The Antisocialization Theory of Neurodiversity or something by now - but don't try to read it all, it's a mess. Just ask me.

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I'm visiting family, and wow am I deep in autistic denial territory.

Some of my younger relatives have approached me, asking about neurodivergence because I've been so open about my experience as a late realised autistic person. They're wondering about themselves and their parents.

The older people though, are unable to have that conversation. There are jokey, sidelong half acknowledgements that "there might be something going on" with them, but otherwise it's High Masking At All Times.

What I find difficult to deal with is the rather toxic judgemental attitudes.

So-and-so relative is "so picky about his food, he thinks it makes him important" or "how ridiculous, he doesn't like the too bright light in the bathroom" and all the while I can see them struggling to deal with the exact same difficulties they're judging in others.

It's so ingrained, I don't know if there's a way for them to find self acceptance.

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@ScottSoCal @dpnash @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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I didn’t hear it and I think I bloody should have. Honestly, I’m claiming it now. 😈

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@JoBlakely @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
my deal is, get the ideas in your head, especially masking and do the tests again - that settled it for me, that the less I worry about what are the “right,” answers, the higher my scores get. I don’t remember my numbers, and it doesn’t matter, they’re sort of just my masking numbers. But if they tend to rise by unmasking, then you’re masking, and you’re Autistic.
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Make any sense?

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@JoBlakely @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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also, when I told them to my spokeskid, they one-upped me, they had higher numbers - and I still think they’re not Autistic, I mean they’re my current main hater.
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So I suspect the tests can be fooled in less educational ways also. They’re soft tests, I guess is the point, so the process was the point for me, not the result.

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@JoBlakely @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
This is me also. The people I was born among did not make me think I should be like them. ❤️

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@nellie_m @JoBlakely @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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and I suppose there are many things we think differently about, but I've boiled it all down to, well, everything I'm always saying, the main thing that convinced me was some, let's say, "extreme spanking (not of me)," where they talked about teaching the kid right from wrong and I just knew in my bones as a young'un that that does not make people "better." Same shit I'm still raving about always and right now in two other conversations. LOL.

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@Uair @nellie_m @JoBlakely @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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not sure if it's better or worse, both I guess, but I have for myself moved the get-go from three million or three hundred thousand years ago ahead to maybe fifteen thousand years ago, and also moved it onto "normal people," and off of us.
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I mean what is philosophy for if not to exempt oneself 😈

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@Uair @nellie_m @JoBlakely @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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I mean, three million years, that's maybe not blatantly non-viable, the planet was perhaps surviving some sorts of humans?

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@JoBlakely @Uair @nellie_m @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
my point is if it's in the environment, it changes you.
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If your environment has say, lions, those you will want to avoid, but your life of avoiding them will change you, the gazelles get fast and the elephants get big and the buffalo try to stay together, they "avoid," but you can't avoid evolving.

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@JoBlakely @Uair @nellie_m @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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Ah, OK, no worries.
But same with spanking and cops, punishment schemes: you can often avoid the penalty (the lion), but the act of dealing with it still changes people, it is a real part of a real environment and despite what NT science seems to think regarding humans, evolution hasn't suddenly stopped just because we learned to read.
😀 ❤️

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@JoBlakely @Uair @nellie_m @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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I don't think I've yet made sense of the "landscape of fear," thing they discovered in Yellowstone as regards people, but there's something in there.
Teacher fantasy: make it somebody's homework assignment, LOL

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@JoBlakely @Uair @nellie_m @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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I have got an old one about it, reading that now. The basic idea is about how the presence of predators protects the prey's prey, the prey species' food, which in turn is something else's whole habitat . . . yeah, I only posed the question then, so I remembered that part right. Still an un-sounded rabbit hole.

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@woozle @Uair @nellie_m @JoBlakely @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
it's the worst combination, the herd humans are the wolves, while the sheep are scattered about in small groups or alone 😘

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@JoBlakely @Uair @nellie_m @axnxcamr @Zumbador @actuallyautistic
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So, what's the metaphor, I'm saying the Police state is the predator, and we are the prey species, what does our fear protect, what is it we would theoretically over-control, over-consume if we didn't fear the police about it?
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I mean besides fun, amirite 😘

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Does anyone else have surging electric?

I thought somebody had changed a light bulb in my bathroom, but it was just stronger electric. It explains why my air conditioner and refrigerator intermittently grind and chug up and down.

I'm in a residential hotel, and chalking it up to extra draw from somebody earlier in the circuit. Like when the people downstairs take a shower, mine gets colder.

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@Uair @actuallyautistic
on anything but a great feed, an inductive load, fans, will cause a dearth, it’s common for the lights to dull as the A/C comes on.
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Extrapolating from that. a building with one in every room might just see those effects spread out and happening with nothing coming on in your room?

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@Uair @dweebish @actuallyautistic
gawd, the cheap new fridge in here is noisy as Hell, and it’s s motors and strain and fluids - it seems to be straining with digestion, sounds like the “something,” from the Pepto commercial . 😈🤣

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