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AuDHD/anxiety/bipolar

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theautisticcoach , to ActuallyAutistic group
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Distinguishing needs from preferences can be challenging.

Focus on what’s essential for your well-being vs. what brings comfort or joy.

Listen to your body and emotions.

What’s happening?

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@theautisticcoach @actuallyautistic I'm tired, my mind wants to just sleep. I suspect a recent event and persistent anxiety it triggered has driven be back into a shutdown, or that I didn't actually recover from the previous one. But it makes me feel guilty, that I should be able to pull myself out of this.It makes me sad too, as it makes me face this particular limitation and how it affects my life in general.

dramypsyd , to ActuallyAutistic group
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Have any of my people ever done an EEG? I'm reading about how those can be used for diagnostic purposes and though I'm already diagnosed, I'm intrigued and kind of want to see what it says about my brain.

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@dramypsyd @actuallyautistic Not EEG but I had fMRI during my autism/ADHD diagnostic process to rule out brain damage as a possible factor with my issues (I've had several head injuries during my life). They found anomalies "unlikely to be injury related" and my neurodoc said the finding supports my AuDHD diagnosis, though couldn't explain exactly why and what the anomalies actually mean, cognitively.

Zumbador , to ActuallyAutistic group
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I'm visiting family, and wow am I deep in autistic denial territory.

Some of my younger relatives have approached me, asking about neurodivergence because I've been so open about my experience as a late realised autistic person. They're wondering about themselves and their parents.

The older people though, are unable to have that conversation. There are jokey, sidelong half acknowledgements that "there might be something going on" with them, but otherwise it's High Masking At All Times.

What I find difficult to deal with is the rather toxic judgemental attitudes.

So-and-so relative is "so picky about his food, he thinks it makes him important" or "how ridiculous, he doesn't like the too bright light in the bathroom" and all the while I can see them struggling to deal with the exact same difficulties they're judging in others.

It's so ingrained, I don't know if there's a way for them to find self acceptance.

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LehtoriTuomo , to ActuallyAutistic group
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Someone asked whether I ever played Doom. No, not really. I told that I've never liked first person shooters and then it hit me. I never liked them as there's too much going on. In fact, I've never been a big fan of any types of shooters, the only exception being Cannon Fodder. Now, with the new-found autistic perspective, it makes perfect sense. Sensory overdrive all the time equals no fun. How about my fellow autistics, any fans of shooters?

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undefined_variable ,
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@LehtoriTuomo @actuallyautistic I mostly prefer simulators. With shooters and such I often feel the difficulty comes from the game "cheating" and that just annoys me too much. And yes, the stress and overload factor, tho I have to say it can get quite high in simulators too. Or when playing something like X-com...

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