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Lotta

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"it takes a long time afterwards to understand what was “me” and what was “them.”

...

.Anyone can memory-foam,…but I feel it is especially common for autistics. And I have a few ideas why.

https://medium.com/@attleehall/autistic-memory-foaming-2cfecfcb9e8c

Lotta ,
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@littlescraps @foolishowl @Ilovechai @autisticadvocacy @actuallyautistic @actuallyaudhd
That are the questions I am asking myself these days. Who am I under all those masks I had to put on? What likes did I suppress because I tried to fit in? Which things did I not allow myself to do anymore because they weren’t seen as appropriate? What is my authentic self?
And I just really don’t know.

Lotta ,
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@Elvenby @littlescraps @foolishowl @Ilovechai @autisticadvocacy @actuallyautistic @actuallyaudhd
Probably like peeling an onion… removing layer by layer of masking. And I don’t know how long it will last after >40 years of it.

Lotta ,
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@ScottSoCal
I have a dog. :) And kids. (Probably would not if I had known all the things much earlier but well, here we are)
So I can be weird with them too (until they become teenagers, then I will be cringey for them anyway, probably).
And I found a very safe space, a conscious dance event, where everything and everyone is welcome, just as they are, any movement, lying on the floor, making noises, whatever comes to mind or from the body. I go there every week and can explore and try out. Dancing barefoot (or with socks), as much contact one wants with others, or not. When I remember how I began there last year I made quite some progress. :)

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