I don’t have nostalgia. I don’t miss places. I may remember them vividly, and love something about them, and hold it dear in my heart, but when I leave - I don’t want to come back.
Actually, I feel rather bad if for some reason I have to. Because the place has already changed. Because I have already changed. Because we’re out of sync now(if we ever were). Because I don’t belong. And seeing that hurts actually way more than just not returning.
Maybe it has something to do with the lack of object permanence. Maybe it is more about that autistic refusal to accept the reality which differs from expectations. Inside, I feel like a kid having a meltdown in the middle of the shopping mall because the toy they got was not 100% what they imagined it was going to be. No place is what you remember when you return after leaving. Maybe that’s the reason.
Is it something other #neurodivergent people also experience often? Do you feel nostalgic often or refuse to get back?
‘I would strongly recommend going through the ADHD testing, but I am not licensed to do the test myself, so I can’t give you the official diagnosis of it as it can only be provided after the test by a licensed specialist, and there are very few ones with this narrow license. However, if you manage to get the test done, come to me with the diagnosis, I would accept it from any licensed provider, and then I would be able to provide you the treatment and the medication: though your insurance doesn’t cover the evaluation, it covers treatment.
As for the autism testing, do it if you have extra money as anyway there’s no treatment against it, and if you struggle with any particular issue - we can work on each of them on the therapy without an official autism diagnosis’ - the second psychiatrist after actually talking to me.
For the reference: depending on the provider, the testing is around 400 euro for either(I haven’t found any combined option, btw, so if I want to do both, it’d double)
Yes, there’s general free healthcare. When I asked in my health center about the psychiatrist appointment(without even specifying the goal), I was told the waiting list currently is more than an year, so they won’t even book one for me.
And people still would go “If yOu rEalLy hAd AuDHD, yoU’D hAvE aN ofFiciAl diAgnoSis”…
Everytime I stand in front of the door and frantically search for the keys in my bag, all that #anxiety makes me panic, pushes me to the verge of tears - even though it is not such a big deal because I’m not in a hurry and if anything, the concierge has a spare pair.
So, naturally, my #autistic brain tries to compensate for a possible #ADHD fail - and every time I walk home, I feel almost unbeatable urge to get my keys out of my bag to my hand when I am still like 200 meters from home.
I suppose, it’s the same overcompensation mechanism that makes me come to airport at least two hours before the departure and to a train station at least an hour before, buy spares of essentials each time a bottle starts feeling not full, or always have a stocked pantry(though there may be multiple of ones and none of others as I always forget to check what I have before going to the store)
Is this exaggerated(to the point of creating problems) ‘better safe than sorry’ something #AuDHD people are more prone to? Do you guys also do that? @actuallyautistic
So, it was good. Very emotional roller coaster. I thought my son was bored but he wasn’t antsy to leave. As we were walking out, he shared that he really liked it. It certainly felt authentic.
The story is focused more on a family and inter-generational perspective, which I think will make it more acressivle and relatable to a broader audience.
Good day! A recurring topic I read or I talk about with other autist and/or ADHD folks is the differential effect of medication (or drugs, mentioning just for precision and completeness), both in quantities (dosage) and quality (concrete effect).
for instance a lot of people take very small doses of Quetiapin (Seroquel) for sleeping in ammounts psychiatrists say "It can't even make a difference" (25mg per day, or even 1/4 of it). Off label of course, as Seroquel is usually an anti-psychotic medication, normal dosage starts at 400mg, or again off label as anti-depressive, at 150mg. Or some people take medikinet (ritalin) in sub-dosing - 1/4 or lower - quantities (usual min. dose 5mg). Effect seeked is the same, so not offlabel, but still interesting why this happens.
Do you have experiences to share (or gladly PM) or links I could learn more about this?
I would be also interested in effects on life-expectancy on taking these medications (or others you may mention) for decades.
I had detached from believing the sensations my body was telling me foe a long time as I was told that I was too sensitive, so I shut it down and then lost trust in myself.
By leaning into my feelings, by noticing and focusing on my bodily sensations, I am learning to trust myself again from the inside out.
Doing so has helped me across many areas of life. #AuDHD
For what sort of toots could I use hashtags like #ActuallyAutistic or the previous two I just used?
I Toot quite a bit about me and my quirky way life. But I never really know if I "should" add any ND hashtags as the "silly" things I Toot about are quite normal to me. If that makes sense 🤔...
I'm proud enough, these days, of who I am. But I wonder if and when it would be good to add some of these tags... Maybe it could help connect with other peeps like me 😇.
If someone is telling me something important, I start taking notes wether they tell me to or not, and then aggressively stop them and make them repeat themselves on each point until I make sure I have everything written down.
I’m a very fast listener but I write very slowly and can’t listen and write at the same time. Got so much grief over that during my school years. Everyone including myself assumed I just didn’t like writing and that’s why I never had proper notes to study from but it was good old monotropism rendering me unable to multitask. The joys of being unidentified #AuDHD
I read about a new detailed map of the human brain. As expected, the "normal brains" were contrasted with "disordered" ones and how eventually they might learn "what's wrong" with them.
If you want to meet lots of lovely autistic people here (plus me 😆), you could do worse than follow the @actuallyautistic group and the #ActuallyAutistic hashtag. We're cool with self-diagnosis and with people who think they may be autistic and are interested in learning more. And many of us are #AuDHD.
This could be the connection between Ehlers-Danlos and neurodivergence. (People with EDS, like me, are 7 times as likely to be autistic and 5 times as likely to have ADHD -- also like me.)
I know people with estrogen have said their ADHD gets worse during perimenopause/menopause, but I'm wondering if people with testosterone 50+ also notice their Autism/ADHD symptoms getting worse. Especially more "inattentive"/stuck in their thoughts.
I feel like we really need more research on all of this.
My current world order, where my morning and overnight schedule has largely shifted to accommodate a crazy early start to get kiddo ready for alternate school pickup, has resulted in my not being up as late at night as I used to be.
What I’ve realized is this seriously impacts my productivity. I’m way more productive at quiet times in mg day, and now my working time is constrained to when others are around. This sucks.