#ActuallyAutistc @actuallyautistic
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I don’t know about you, but my self diagnosis was anything but fast or easy. It was sixty year goddam treasure hunt where anyone who knew or could have known anything made a point of keeping it a secret.
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No matter the troubles I was having, the messaging from family (who absolutely all knew) and doctors and psychologists was all NT conformism:You are Normal. We are All the Same.
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Self diagnosis is about as easy as a salmon finding its breeding spot after a thousand miles of white water. It’s an against all odds kind of deal, at least for us olds.
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Neurotypes are the biggest secret in the world, because We are All the Same, they say. They don’t like self diagnosis because it’s when we win the game of Hide and Seek, we are Kicking the Can when we self discover, winning the game.
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I ran out of strength to keep pretending. We are not all 'actors'.
24/7 acting, I lost myself. I never seemed to stop hating myself all the while. I lied to myself, to think I liked myself, or was the lie, the facade, the fake, the thing that put others needs first instead of her own... I suffered, physically and mentally, so they didnt have to see a small stain in their sight.
Out of sight, out of mind, suffering of the child in the basement nobody sees.
@eestileib@GreenRoc@actuallyautistic
just looked it up, read the words
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I think it's tongue in cheek, that middle verse, the prophecies are all just normal real life, right, but Bruno, that bastard, SAYS them, OMG
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Yeah, I get it. Be funny as Hell if it was a little less true. ❤️
@GreenRoc@eestileib@actuallyautistic
different Brunos, I think?
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I suppose everything that makes fun of Allists, shows us "normal people," that would seem to have, uh, "severe Allism," is "Autistically coded?"
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Like that's what Bruno made fun of, and that's what the Dictator parodied? Extremely Allistic people, the Army, the wrestling fans?