homelessjun

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your worst friend ever. borg designation: 17 of 3. #ActuallyAutistic. #Disability. Bendy. #agender. #WeirdingWays #weird. monster. tsundere. not-tsundere. #性別. #英語. #日本語. More guilt than all Catholics combined. [Sorry, but I do not follow back (but it does not necessarily mean I will never follow).]

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chevalier26 , to ActuallyAutistic group
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@actuallyautistic Does anyone else find that their music taste is extremely unconventional? I can enjoy most types of music with others, but when I'm alone I listen to stuff that most people would never listen to. Like historical folk songs, military marches, courtly dance music, sea shanties, etc.

I enjoy other music too but I feel like the above categories are things I am "ashamed" to play around others. Idk if that makes sense lol.

homelessjun ,

@chevalier26 yes.

but my music interests range widely.

and some is not regarded as music by most.

i find massmarket music and whatever is produced to fit some commercial algorithm are pretty disgusting. nauseating, even.

@actuallyautistic

homelessjun ,

@chevalier26

lol! i have had experiences like that!

it is fascinating.

@actuallyautistic

spika , to ActuallyAutistic group
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One of the most frustrating things I find about verbal conversations is how sometimes a conversation feels like it's going on smoothly and then a hiccup happens.

A misunderstanding. An unexpected comment. Maybe two people started talking at the same time. Something like that.

It's like somebody took my brain and shook it like an etch-a-sketch and I've completely forgotten what we're talking about, what I was going to say next, and I'm dysregulated.

And it's a thing I've noticed happens with my partner as well, and when it happens with us at the same time, it's double distressing because the expectation we have is the other has tracked the conversation well enough so we haven't gotten completely lost and can get caught up and get back on track but in reality we both lost the plot and are frustrated with the other for not retaining it.

@actuallyautistic

homelessjun ,

@spika

so much this!

english is really difficult at times.

@actuallyautistic

chevalier26 , to ActuallyAutistic group
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@actuallyautistic Does it bother anyone else when someone folds your laundry for you? I do appreciate the effort and the intention, but half the time I have to go back and refold everything because it wasn’t folded the way I need it to be for me to put it away or organize it properly. I would rather just do all the folding myself lol. Idk, I know that probably seems selfish but it does irk me sometimes.

homelessjun ,

@chevalier26

it always bothers me.

i always have to refold.

and some things are to be hung, not folded but are folded.

@actuallyautistic

pathfinder , to ActuallyAutistic group
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@actuallyautistic

Autistic brains be stupid. Well, obviously not stupid, they just seem to work, or not work, in mysterious ways.

The main one that has always got me, about mine, is that I have no memory for sound, absolutely none. I can't remember a song, or a sound. I can't remember what my parents sounded like and none of my memories carry, for want of a better word, a soundtrack. I can remember what I was thinking and what others were saying, but not hearing them say it, nor any other sound. I also don't dream in sound, at least as far as I know. All my dreams are silent.

And yet, and it's a big yet. I have an excellent memory for voices and sounds. Like many autistics I have near perfect pitch, at least when I'm hearing others sing, or music playing. Just don't ask me to reproduce it, because I can't. If I meet someone I haven't met for a while, then I will almost certainly not recognise their face, or remember their name, but there is a very good chance that I will recognise them from their voice. I am also very good at detecting accents. Even the slightest hint of one in, say, an actor pretending to be an american, will get me searching Wikipedian to see if I am right about their actual nationality.

So, if I can tell the sound of a Honda CBR engine two blocks away, or a voice, or an accent buried deep, I must have the memories to compare against. And yet... nope.

So, as I said, autistic brains be stupid.


homelessjun ,

@pathfinder

i used to get in so much trouble from doing this. i am unaware of it happening.

@CynAq @actuallyautistic

homelessjun ,

@pathfinder

someone sarcastically mentioned that at least i was paying attention. and, actually, that is what it really is. in part, at least.

@CynAq @actuallyautistic

homelessjun ,

@pathfinder

agreed. as soon as i started talking i was experimenting with word sounds, trying different sounds with words. i still do this. and i remember experimenting with sounds a lot before i started talking. also sang a lot from very young until i ripped a vocal cord.

@CynAq @actuallyautistic

homelessjun ,

@pathfinder

i have never been outside the states but have been accused of being from various countries when someone hears me speak. it was confusing because it never occurred to me that i sound different, or, "foreign" to anyone else at times.

@Tooden @CynAq @actuallyautistic

homelessjun ,

@pathfinder

it was just a tiny little tear but that was more than enough. (i can still feel it.)

@CynAq @actuallyautistic

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