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fulanigirl , 1 month ago

@venitamathias @BigAngBlack @blackmastodon @BlackMastodon Forgot all about these two! Good pick. They would liven up any cookout.

venitamathias , 1 month ago

@fulanigirl @BigAngBlack @blackmastodon @BlackMastodon Sure would.

dilmandila OP , 1 month ago

@msquebanh @bookstodon @blackmastodon I believe through the publisher is a good place to start. I see its available for pre-order

https://www.flametreepublishing.com/african-ghost-short-stories-isbn-9781804177976.html

msquebanh , 1 month ago

@dilmandila @bookstodon @blackmastodon I signed up for email alert 👍

mike805 , 2 days ago

@BigAngBlack @blackmastodon @BlackMastodon Mike Tyson leading a slave revolt would be awesome!

BigAngBlack OP , 2 days ago

@mike805
So many KOs
@blackmastodon @BlackMastodon

binaryphile , 7 days ago

@davidhmccoy @TheConversationUS @blackmastodon The implication being that you can't find out the black experience by, say, talking to black people and then believing what they say.

skydog , 7 days ago

@TheConversationUS @blackmastodon

My dad had Black Like Me on his bookshelf, as a psychologist. It wasn't merely professional, either. Our Irish ancestry has a darker skin tone than normal, but still 'white', and afro-textured black hair. In the service at the end of WWII he was denied restrooms in Georgia.

I find the inference that posing as black for discovery is just another form of blackface to be very interesting, and a tell of racism, realized or not, within the speaker themself. It's also interesting see how people want to form the line of color on a spectrum that is largely seamless.

japipes , 16 days ago

@CultureDesk @bookstodon @blackmastodon
The poll results are a bit surprising to me. I always knew sci-fi was popular, but I wouldn't have predicted it to be first. My debut novel was #sci_fi (or, more specifically, #PoliSciFi) but I mostly read non-fiction.

NarrelleMHarris , 15 days ago

@bookstodon @CultureDesk @blackmastodon and Fanfiction. I read All The Things. I’m a writer of fantasy, crime and romance (often combined).

pernia , 1 day ago

@chog9 @Drippy_Spudd @Lyx @MutualAidVisibility @bikenite @blackmastodon @chronicillness @creature @disability @disabilityjustice @fedibikes @histodons @lyx @mecfs @mutualaid @paragon @trans @vegan no

chog9 OP , 1 day ago

@pernia @Drippy_Spudd @Lyx @MutualAidVisibility @bikenite @blackmastodon @chronicillness @creature @disability @disabilityjustice @fedibikes @histodons @lyx @mecfs @mutualaid @paragon @trans @vegan why not

rlpaulprodn , 1 month ago

@TheConversationUS @blackmastodon The conversation on this subject with regard to Shakespeare has been robust. The outgoing director of the Folger Shakespeare Library really thought it was an important conversation, and the incoming director (a woman of color) is even more devoted to it. It’s a valuable conversation, once you get past the screamers.

rlpaulprodn , 1 month ago

@TheConversationUS @blackmastodon Here are some of the podcasts I produced for them on various aspects of the subject.
https://www.folger.edu/podcasts/shakespeare-unlimited/othello-blackface/

https://www.folger.edu/podcasts/shakespeare-unlimited/elizabethan-race-blackness-dadabhoy/

https://www.folger.edu/podcasts/shakespeare-unlimited/critical-race-theory-titus-andronicus/

https://www.folger.edu/podcasts/shakespeare-unlimited/paterson-joseph-julius-caesar/

SharonCrockett OP , 17 days ago

@EllenInEdmonton @blackvoices @blackmastodon Even to this day, while maybe no longer using relaxer, she uses expensive hair extensions and other types of hair pieces that give her the appearance of a “natural” look that’s financially out of reach for most Black women. Still, I do appreciate her frankly decrying her nightmarish experiences using relaxers. I remember back before she was “Oprah”, she wore a short Afro on local Baltimore TV news where I used to see her in the early 1980’s.

SharonCrockett OP , 17 days ago

@Weirding_Is_Real @blackvoices @blackmastodon You’re welcome! NYT does a pretty good job with its audio versions of its longer articles— a godsend for my elderly mother, whose eyesight makes it harder to read the tiny print of longer pieces.

shonin , 26 days ago

@TheConversationUS @blackmastodon I choose the bear.

CompletelyRatchet , 26 days ago

@TheConversationUS @blackmastodon Alice Ball 💪❤️

iagox86 , 1 month ago

@trode @TheConversationUS @blackmastodon @lisamelton Those memories burned into my brain of Chief Carmen going on the news every night spreading outright lies

eugenekim , 1 month ago

@TheConversationUS @blackmastodon Correction: “Police departments led by Black women in cities with protests tended to be peaceful”

BigAngBlack OP , 11 days ago

2001
John Lee Hooker dies

#BlackMastodon
@blackmastodon
@BlackMastodon

BigAngBlack OP , 9 days ago

Does anyone know Pete Rock's middle name?

1832
Joseph Hayne Rainey born Georgetown SC

1859
Henry Ossawa Tanner born Pittsburgh PA

1927
Carl Burton Stokes born Cleveland OH

1942
Togo Dennis West Jr born Winston-Salem NC

1946
Brenda Holloway born Atascadero CA

1954
Horace Michael Swaby ''Augustus Pablo'' born St Andrew Jamaica

1971
Peter O Phillips ''Pete Rock'' born Bronx NYC

#BlackFriday
#BlackMastodon
@blackmastodon
@BlackMastodon

Joseph Hayne Rainey, 1st African American elected to US House of Representatives
Brenda Holloway
Augustus Pablo

chog9 OP , 1 month ago

@pernia @MutualAidVisibility @Owl @blackmastodon @chronicillness @disability @disabilityjustice @histodons @mecfs @mutualaid @pernia put a sock in it nigger

pernia , 1 month ago

@chog9 @MutualAidVisibility @Owl @blackmastodon @chronicillness @disability @disabilityjustice @histodons @mecfs @mutualaid @pernia holy shit stand down

lonelyowl13 , 1 month ago

@shitpisscum @blackmastodon @lonelyowl13 @realman543 @colonelj @nukie @sleepingnevi @Lyx @Rapist @chog9 @nimt @pedophiledetector @pernia @hor32 @Soy_Magnus @lina @0 @f0x @syzygy @alex @0 @MK2boogaloo @f0x @kirby @sysrq @meeper @MutualAidVisibility @georgia @Owl @dj @maija @voltrina @moth_ball @iceloops @sun @f_o_u_r_t_y @meso @Loki

I AM THE DOORWAY
Richard and I sat on my porch, looking out over the dunes to the Gulf. The smoke from his cigar drifted
mellowly in the air, keeping the mosquitoes at a safe distance. The water was a cool aqua, the sky a deeper, truer
blue. It was a pleasant combination.
'You are the doorway,' Richard repeated thoughtfully. 'You are sure you killed the boy - you didn't just dream it?'
'I didn't dream it. And I didn't kill him, either - I told you that. They did. I am the doorway.'
Richard sighed. 'You buried him?'
'Yes.'
'You remember where?'
'Yes.' I reached into my breast pocket and got a cigarette. My hands were awkward with their covering of
bandages. They itched abominably. 'If you want to see it, you'll have to get the dune buggy. You can't roll this -' I
indicated my wheelchair - 'through the sand.' Richard's dune buggy was a 1959 VW with pillow-sized tyres. He
collected driftwood in it. Ever since he retired from the real estate business in Maryland he had been living on
Key Caroline and building driftwood sculptures which he sold to the winter tourists at shameless prices.
He puffed his cigar and looked out at the Gulf. 'Not yet. Will you tell me once more?'
I sighed and tried to light my cigarette. He took the matches away from me and did it himself. I puffed twice,
dragging deep. The itch in my fingers was maddening.
'All right,' I said. 'Last night at seven I was out here, looking at the Gulf and smoking, just like now, and J..’
'Go further back,' he invited.
'Further?'
'Tell me about the flight.'
I shook my head. 'Richard, we've been through it and through it. There's nothing -'
The seamed and fissured face was as enigmatic as one of his own driftwood sculptures. 'You may remember,' he
said. 'Now you may remember.'
'Do you think so?'
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'Possibly. And when you're through, we can look for the grave.'
'The grave,' I said. It had a hollow, horrible ring, darker than anything, darker even than all that terrible ocean
Cory and I had sailed through five years ago. Dark, dark, dark.
Beneath the bandages, my new eyes stared blindly into the darkness the bandages forced on them. They itched.
Cory and I were boosted into orbit by the Saturn 16, the one all the commentators called the Empire State
Building booster. It was a big beast, all right. It made the old Saturn 1-B look like a Redstone, and it took off
from a bunker two hundred feet deep - it had to, to keep from taking half of Cape Kennedy with it.
We swung around the earth, verifying all our systems, and then did our inject. Headed out for Venus. We left a
Senate fighting over an appropriations bill for further deep-space exploration, and a bunch of NASA people
praying that we would find something, anything.
'It don't matter what,' Don Lovinger, Project Zeus's private whiz kid, was very fond of saying when he'd had a
few. 'You got all the gadgets, plus five souped-up TV cameras and a nifty little telescope with a zillion lenses and
filters. Find some gold or platinum. Better yet, find some nice, dumb little blue men for us to study and exploit
and feel superior to. Anything. Even the ghost of Howdy Doody would be a start.'
Cory and I were anxious enough to oblige, if we could. Nothing had worked for the deep-space programme.
From Borman, Anders, and Lovell, who orbited the moon in '6~ and found an empty, forbidding world that
looked like dirty beach sand, to Markhan and Jacks, who touched down on Mars eleven years later to find an arid
wasteland of frozen sand and a few struggling lichens, the deep-space programme had been an expensive bust.
And there had been casualties - Pederson and Lederer, eternally circling the sun when all at once nothing worked
on the second-to4ast Apollo flight. John Davis, whose little orbiting observatory was holed by a meteoroid in a
one-in-a-thousand fluke. No, the space programme was hardly swinging along. The way things looked, the Venus
orbit might be our last chance to say we told you so.
It was sixteen days out - we ate a lot of concentrates, played a lot of gin, and swapped a cold back and forth - and
from the tech side it was a milk run. We lost an air-moisture converter on the third day out, went to backup, and
that was all, except for flits and nats, until re-entry. We watched Venus grow from a star to a quarter to a milky
crystal ball, swapped jokes with Huntsville Control, listened to tapes of Wagner and the Beatles, tended to
automated experiments which had to do with everything from measurements of the solar wind to deep-space
navigation. We did two midcourse corrections, both of them infinitesimal, and nine days into the flight Cory went
outside and banged on the retractable DESA until it decided to operate. There was nothing else out of the
ordinary until.
'DESA,' Richard said. 'What's that?'
'An experiment that didn't pan out. NASA-ese for Deep Space Antenna - we were broadcasting pi in high-
frequency pulses for anyone who cared to listen.' I rubbed my fingers against my pants, but it was no good; if
anything, it made it worse. 'Same idea as that radio telescope in West Virginia - you know, the one that listens to
the stars. Only instead of listening, we were transmitting, primarily to the deeper space planets - Jupiter, Saturn,
Uranus. If there's any intelligent life out there, it was taking a nap.'
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'Only Cory went out?'
'Yes. And if he brought in any interstellar plague, the telemetry didn't show it.'
'Still -'
'It doesn't matter,' I said crossly. 'Only the here and now matters. They killed the boy last night, Richard. It wasn't
a nice thing to watch - or feel. His head. . . it exploded. As if someone had scooped out his brains and put a hand
grenade in his skull.'
'Finish the story,' he said.
I laughed hollowly. 'What's to tell?'
We went into an eccentric orbit around the planet. It was radical and deteriorating, three twenty by seventy-six
miles. That was on the first swing. The second swing our apogee was even higher, the perigree lower. We had a
max of four orbits. We made all four. We got a good look at the planet. Also over six hundred stills and God
knows how many feet of film.
The cloud cover is equal parts methane, ammonia, dust, and flying shit. The whole planet looks like the Grand
Canyon in a wind tunnel. Cory estimated windspeed at about 600mph near the surface. Our probe beeped all the
way down and then went out with a squawk. We saw no vegetation and no sign of life. Spectroscope indicated
only traces of the valuable minerals. And that was Venus. Nothing but nothing - except it scared me. It was like
circling a haunted house in the middle of deep space. I know how unscientific that sounds, but I was scared
gutless until we got out of there. I think if our rockets hadn't gone off, I would have cut my throat on the way
down. It's not like the moon. The moon is desolate but somehow antiseptic. That world we saw was utterly unlike
anything that anyone has ever seen. Maybe it's a good thing that cloud cover is there. It was like a skull that's
been picked clean -that's the closest I can get.
On the way back we heard the Senate had voted to halve space-exploration funds. Cory said something like
'looks like we're back in the weather-satellite business, Artie.' But I was almost glad. Maybe we don't belong out
there.
Twelve days later Cory was dead and I was crippled for life. We bought all our trouble on the way down. The
chute was fouled. How's that for life's little ironies? We'd been in space for over a month, gone further than any
humans had ever gone, and it all ended the way it did because some guy was in a hurry for his coffee break and
let a few lines get fouled.
We came down hard. A guy that was in one of the copters said it looked like a gigantic baby falling out of the
sky, with the placenta trailing after it. I lost consciousness when we hit.
I came to when they were taking me across the deck of the Portland. They hadn't even had a chance to roll up the
red carpet we were supposed to've walked on. I was bleeding. Bleeding and being hustled up to the infirmary
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over a red carpet that didn't look anywhere near as red as I did...
I was in Bethesda for two years. They gave me the Medal of Honor and a lot of money and this wheelchair. I
came down here the next year. I like to watch the rockets take off.'
'I know,' Richard said. He paused. 'Show me your hands.'
'No.' It came out very quickly and sharply. 'I can't let them see. I've told you that.'
'It's been five years,' Richard said. 'Why now, Arthur? Can you tell me that?'
'I don't know. I don't know! Maybe whatever it is has a long gestation period. Or who's to say I even got it out
there? Whatever it was might have entered me in Fort Lauderdale. Or right here on this porch, for all I know.'
Richard sighed and looked out over the water, now reddish with the late-evening sun. 'I'm trying. Arthur, I don't
want to think that you are losing your mind.'
'If I have to, I'll show you my hands,' I said. It cost me an effort to say it. 'But only if I have to.'
Richard stood up and found his cane. He looked old and frail. 'I'll get the dune buggy. We'll look for the boy.'
'Thank you, Richard.'
He walked out towards the rutted dirt track that led to his cabin - I could just see the roof of it over the Big Dune,
the one that runs almost the whole length of Key Caroline. Over the water towards the Cape, the sky had gone an
ugly plum colour, and the sound of thunder came faintly to my ears.
I didn't know the boy's name but I saw him every now and again, walking along the beach at sunset, with his
sieve under his arm. He was tanned almost black by the sun, and all he was ever clad in was a frayed pair of
denim cutoffs. On the far side of Key Caroline there is a public beach, and an enterprising young man can make
perhaps as much as five dollars on a good day, patiently sieving the sand for buried quarters or dimes. Every now
and then I would wave to him and he would wave back, both of us non-commital, strangers yet brothers, year-
round dwellers set against a sea of money spending, Cadillac-driving, loud-mouthed tourists. I imagine he lived
in the small village clustered around the post office about a half mile further down.
When he passed by that evening I had already been on the porch for an hour, immobile, watching. I had taken off
the bandages earlier. The itching had been intolerable, and it was always better when they could look through
their eyes.
It was a feeling like no other in the world - as if I were a portal just slightly ajar through which they were peeking
at a world which they hated and feared. But the worst part was that I could see, too, in a way. Imagine your mind
transported into a body of a housefly, a housefly looking into your own face with a thousand eyes. Then perhaps
you can begin to see why I kept my hands bandaged even when there was no one around to see them.
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It began in Miami. I had business there with a man named Cresswell, an investigator from the Navy Department.
He checks up on me once a year - for a while I was as close as anyone ever gets to the classified stuff our space
programme has. I don't know just what it is he looks for; a shifty gleam in the eye, maybe, or maybe a scarlet
letter on my forehead. God knows why. My pension is large enough to be almost embarrassing.
Cresswell and I were sitting on the terrace of his hotel room, sipping drinks and discussing the future of the US
space programme. It was about three-fifteen. My fingers began to itch. It wasn't a bit gradual. It was switched on
like electric current. I mentioned it to Cresswell.
'So you picked up some poison ivy on that scrofulous little island,' he said, grinning.
'The only foliage on Key Caroline is a little palmetto scrub,' I said. 'Maybe it's the seven-year itch.' I looked down
at my hands. Perfectly ordinary hands. But itchy.
Later in the afternoon I signed the same old paper ('I do solemnly swear that I have neither received nor disclosed
and divulged information which would . . .') and drove myself back to the Key. I've got an old Ford, equipped
with hand-operated brake and accelerator. I love it - it makes me feel self-sufficient.
It's a long drive back, down Route 1, and by the time I got off the big road and on to the Key Caroline exit ramp,
I was nearly out of my mind. My hands itched maddeningly. If you have ever suffered through the healing of a
deep cut or a surgical incision, you may have some idea of the kind of itch I mean. Live things seemed to be
crawling and boring in my flesh.
The sun was almost down and I looked at my hands carefully in the glow of the dash lights. The tips of them
were red now, red in tiny, perfect circlets, just above the pad where the fingerprint is, where you get calluses if
you play guitar. There were also red circles of infection on the space between the first and second joint of each
thumb and finger, and on the skin between the second joint and the knuckle. I pressed my right fingers to my lips
and withdrew them quickly, with a sudden loathing. A feeling of dumb horror had risen in my throat, woollen
and choking. The flesh where the red spots had appeared was hot, feverish, and the flesh was soft and gelid, like
the flesh of an apple gone rotten.
I drove the rest of the way trying to persuade myself that I had indeed caught poison ivy somehow. But in the
back of my mind there was another ugly thought. I had an aunt, back in my childhood, who lived the last ten
years of her life closed off from the world in an upstairs room. My mother took her meals up, and her name was a
forbidden topic. I found out later that she had Hansen's disease -leprosy.
When I got home I called Dr Flanders on the mainland. I got his answering service instead. Dr Flanders was on a
fishing cruise, but if it was urgent, Dr Ballanger -'When will Dr Flanders be back?'
'Tomorrow afternoon at the latest. Would that -' 'Sure.'
I hung up slowly, then dialled Richard. I let it ring a dozen times before hanging up. After that I sat indecisive for
a while. The itching had deepened. It seemed to emanate from the flesh itself.
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I rolled my wheelchair over to the bookcase and pulled down the battered medical encyclopedia that I'd had for
years. The book was maddeningly vague. It could have been anything, or nothing.
I leaned back and closed my eyes. I could hear the old ship's clock ticking on the shelf across the room. There
was the high, thin drone of a jet on its way to Miami. There was the soft whisper of my own breath.
I was still looking at the book.
The realization crept on me, then sank home with a frightening rush. My eyes were closed, but I was still looking
at the book. What I was seeing was smeary and monstrous, the distorted, fourth-dimensional counterpart of a
book, yet unmistakable for all that.
And I was not the only one watching.
I snapped my eyes open, feeling the constriction of my heart. The sensation subsided a little, but not entirely. I
was looking at the book, seeing the print and diagrams with my own eyes, perfectly normal everyday experience,
and I was also seeing it from a different, lower angle and seeing it with other eyes. Seeing not a book but an alien
thing, something of monstrous shape and ominous intent.
I raised my hands slowly to my face, catching an eerie vision of my living room turned into a horror house.
I screamed.
There were eyes peering up at me through splits in the flesh of my fingers. And even as I watched the flesh was
dilating, retreating, as they pushed their mindless way up to the surface.
But that was not what made me scream. I had looked into my own face and seen a monster.
The dune buggy nosed over the hill and Richard brought it to a halt next to the porch. The motor gunned and
roared choppily. I rolled my wheelchair down the inclined plane to the right of the regular steps and Richard
helped me in.
'All right, Arthur,' he said. 'It's your party. Where to?'
I pointed down towards the water, where the Big Dune family begins to peter out. Richard nodded. The rear
wheels spun sand and we were off. I usually found time to rib Richard about his driving, but I didn't bother
tonight. There was too much else to think about - and to feel: they didn't want the dark, and I could feel them
straining to see through the bandages, willing me to take them off.
The dune buggy bounced and roared through the sand towards the water, seeming almost to take flight from the
tops of the small dunes. To the left the sun was going down in bloody glory. Straight ahead and across the water,
the thunderclouds were beating their way towards us. Lightning forked at the water.
'Off to your right,' I said. 'By that lean-to.'
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Richard brought the dune buggy to a sand-spraying halt beside the rotted remains of the lean-to, reached into the
back, and brought out a spade. I winced when I saw it. 'Where?' Richard asked expressionlessly.
'Right there.' I pointed to the place.
He got out and walked slowly through the sand to the spot, hesitated for a second, then plunged the shovel into
the sand. It seemed that he dug for a very long time. The sand he was throwing back over his shoulder looked
damp and moist. The thunderheads were darker, higher, and the water looked angry and implacable under their
shadow and the reflected glow of the sunset.
I knew long before he stopped digging that he was not going to find the boy. They had moved him. I hadn't
bandaged my hands last night, so they could see - and act. If they had been able to use me to kill the boy, they
could use me to move him, even while I slept.
'There's no boy, Arthur.' He threw the dirty shovel into the dune buggy and sat tiredly on the seat. The coming
storm cast marching, crescent-shaped shadows along the sand. The rising breeze rattled sand against the buggy's
rusted body. My fingers itched.
'They used me to move him,' I said dully. 'They're getting the upper hand, Richard. They're forcing their doorway
open, a little at a time. A hundred times a day I find myself standing in front of some perfectly familiar object - a
spatula, a picture, even a can of beans - with no idea how I got there, holding my hands out, showing it to them,
seeing it as they do, as an obscenity, something twisted and grotesque -'Arthur,' he said. 'Arthur, don't. Don't.' In
the failing light his face was wan with compassion. 'Standing in front of something, you said. Moving the boy's
body, you said': But you can't walk, Arthur. You're dead from the waist down.'
I touched the dashboard of the dune buggy. 'This is dead, too. But when you enter it, you can make it go. You
could make it kill. It couldn't stop you even if it wanted to.' I could hear my voice rising hysterically. 'I am the
doorway, can't you understand that? They killed the boy, Richard! They moved the body!'
'I think you'd better see a medical man,' he said quietly. 'Let's go back. Let's -,
'Check! Check on the boy, then! find out -'
'You said you didn't even know his name.'
'He must have been from the village. It's a small village. Ask -'
'I talked to Maud Harrington on the phone when I got the dune buggy. If anyone in the state has a longer nose,
I've not come across her. I asked if she'd heard of anyone's boy not coming home last night. She said she hadn't.'
'But he's a local! He has to be!'
He reached for the ignition switch but I stopped him. He turned to look at me and I began to unwrap my hands.
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From the Gulf, thunder muttered and growled.
I didn't go to the doctor and I didn't call Richard back. I spent three weeks with my hands bandaged every time I
went out. Three weeks just blindly hoping it would go away. It wasn't a rational act; I can admit that. If I had
been a whole man who didn't need a wheelchair for legs or who had spent a normal life in a normal occupation, I
might have gone to Doc Flanders or to Richard. I still might have, if it hadn't been for the memory of my aunt,
shunned, virtually a prisoner, being eaten alive by her own ailing flesh. So I kept a desperate silence and prayed
that I would wake up some morning and find it had been an evil dream.
And little by little, I felt them. Them. An anonymous intelligence. I never really wondered what they looked like
or where they had come from. It was moot. I was their doorway, and their window on the world. I got enough
feedback from them to feel their revulsion and horror, to know that our world was very different from theirs.
Enough feedback to feel their blind hate. But still they watched. Their flesh was embedded in my own. I began to
realize that they were using me, actually manipulating me.
When the boy passed, raising one hand in his usual noncommittal salute, I had just about decided to get in touch
with Cresswell at his Navy Department number. Richard had been right about one thing - I was certain that
whatever had got hold of me had done it in deep space or in that weird orbit around Venus. The Navy would
study me, but they would not freakify me. I wouldn't have to wake up any more into the creaking darkness and
stifle a scream as I felt them watching, watching, watching.
My hands went out towards the boy and I realized that I had not bandaged them. I could see the eyes in the dying
light, watching silently. They were large, dilated, goldenirised. I had poked one of them against the tip of a pencil
once, and had felt excruciating agony slam up my arm. The eye seemed to glare at me with a chained hatred that
was worse than physical pain. I did not poke again.
And now they were watching the boy. I felt my mind sideslip. A moment later my control was gone. The door
was open. I lurched across the sand towards him, legs scissoring nervelessly, so much driven deadwood. My own
eyes seemed to close and I saw only with those alien eyes -saw a monstrous alabaster seascape overtopped with a
sky like a great purple way, saw a leaning, eroded shack that might have been the carcas of some unknown,
fleshdevouring creature, saw an abominated creature that moved and respired and carried a device of wood and
wire under its arm, a device constructed of geometrically impossible right angles.
I wonder what he thought, that wretched, unnamed boy with his sieve under his arm and his pockets bulging with
an odd conglomerate of sandy tourist coins, what he thought when he saw me lurching at him like a blind
conductor stretching out his hands over a lunatic orchestra, what he thought as the last of the light fell across my
hands, red and split and shining with their burden of eyes, what he thought when the hands made that sudden,
flailing gesture in the air, just before his head burst.
I know what I thought.
I thought I had peeked over the rim of the universe and into the fires of hell itself.
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I AM THE DOORWAY
The wind pulled at the bandages and made them into tiny, whipping streamers as I unwrapped them. The clouds
had blottered the red remnants of the sunset, and the dunes were dark and shadow-cast. The clouds raced and
boiled above us.
'You must promise me one thing, Richard,' I said over the rising wind. 'You must run if it seems I might try. . . to
hurt you. Do you understand that?'
'Yes.' He open-throated shirt whipped and rippled with the wind. His face was set, his own eyes little more than
sockets in early dark.
The last of the bandages fell away.
I looked at Richard and they looked at Richard. I saw a face I had known for five years and come to love. They
saw a distorted, living monolith.
'You see them,' I said. hoarsely. 'Now you see them.'
He took an involuntary step backwards. His face became stained with a sudden unbelieving terror. Lightning
slashed out of the sky. Thunder walked in the clouds and the water had gone black as the river Styx.
'Arthur -'
How hideous he was! How could I have lived near him, spoken with him? He was not a creature, but mute
pestilence. He was -'Run! Run, Richard!' And he did run. He ran in huge, bounding leaps. He became a scaffold
against the looming sky. My hands flew up, flew over my head in a screaming, orlesque gesture, the fingers
reaching to the only familiar thing in this nightmare world - reaching to the clouds.
And the clouds answered. There was a huge, blue-white streak of lightning that seemed like the end of the world.
It struck Richard, it enveloped him. The last thing ~ remember is the electric stench of ozone and burnt flesh.
When I awoke I was sitting calmly on my porch, looking out towards the Big Dune. The storm had passed and
the air was pleasantly cool. There was a tiny sliver of moon. The sand was virginal - no sign of Richard or of the
dune buggy.
I looked down at my hands. The eyes were open but glazed. They had exhausted themselves. They dozed.
I knew well enough what had to be done. Before the door could be wedged open any further, it had to be locked.
For ever. Already I could notice the first signs of structural change in the hands themselves. The fingers were
begin-fling to shorten. . . and to change.
There was a small hearth in the living room, and in season I had been in the habit of lighting a fire against the
damp Florida cold. I lit one now, moving with haste. I had no idea when they might wake up to what I was doing.
When it was burning well I went out back to the kerosene drum and soaked both hands. They came awake
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I AM THE DOORWAY
immediately, screaming with agony. I almost didn't make it back to the living room, and to the fire.
But I did make it.
That was all seven years ago. I'm still here, still watching the rockets take off. There have been more of them
lately. This is a space-minded administration. There has even been talk of another series of manned Venus probes.
I found out the boy's name, not that it matters. He was from the village, just as I thought. But his mother had
expected him to stay with a friend on the mainland that night, and the alarm was not raised until the following
Monday. Richard - well, everyone thought Richard was an odd duck, anyway. They suspect he may have gone
back to Maryland or taken up with some woman.
As for me, I'm tolerated, although I have quite a reputation for eccentricity myself. After all, how many ex-
astronauts regularly write their elected Washington officials with the idea that space-exploration money could be
better spent elsewhere?
I get along just fine with these hooks. There was terrible pain for the first year or so, but the human body can
adjust to almost anything. I shave with them and even tie my own shoelaces. And as you can see, my typing is
nice and even. I don't expect to have any trouble putting the shotgun into my mouth or pulling the trigger. It
started again three weeks ago, you see.
There is a perfect circle of twelve golden eyes on my chest.

Lyx , 1 month ago

@pernia @lina @sleepingnevi @chog9 @f_o_u_r_t_y @dj @lonelyowl13 @syzygy @f0x @nukie @meso @colonelj @sun @blackmastodon @iceloops @Rapist @maija @realman543 @alex @voltrina @f0x @mutual_aid @Loki @MutualAidVisibility @meeper @Soy_Magnus @nimt @kirby @DanielStevens @Owl @0 @georgia @0 @hor32 @lonelyowl13 @moth_ball @MK2boogaloo @shitpisscum @sysrq @pedophiledetector this is the BRAVEST post in existence :insanetrannyfaggot:

BigAngBlack OP , 1 month ago

1964
Frederick O'Neal 1st Black President or Actor's Equity Association

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BigAngBlack OP , 1 month ago

What's you fav image of The Godfather of Soul?

1921
''Sugar Ray Robinson'', Walker Smith Junior born Ailey, GA

1933
James Brown born Barnwell, SC

1975
Karim Dulé Hill born Orange, NJ

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James Brown
Karim Dulé Hill

BigAngBlack OP , 18 days ago

1988
B.B. King dubbed official Ambassador of Music to represent US at World Expo in Lisbon

1989
Rep. William Gray elected Dem Whip in US House, highest position held by African American in US Congress

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BigAngBlack OP , 16 days ago

1811
Harriet Beecher Stowe born Litchfield, CT

1918
Timothy Mofolorunso Aluko born Ilesga, Nigeria
(Author)

1932
Coleridge-Taylor Perkinson born Manhattan, NYC
(composer/conductor)

1941
John Edgar Wideman born DC
(Rhodes Scholar)

1946
Marla Gibbs born Chicago, IL

1949
Jules Shungu Wembadio Pene Kikumba ''Papa Wemba'' born Lubefu, Kasai, Belgian Congo

1969
Lorenzo Jerald Patterson ''MC Ren'' born Comptom, CA

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John Edgar Wideman
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