@Dr_Obvious@actuallyautistic They don't know how much hard work it was to build this compilation, this "manual for humans". Of course I know how to mask, how to adapt - I am practicing for more than half a century... even if you are no musician, after 50 years of daily practice you'll become an acceptable piano player with a vast repertoire even if you'd never be able to improvise or play unknown pieces off the cuff.
@Dr_Obvious@Lipidolith@actuallyautistic
being not quite as good as the musician in question, but having tried for that amount of time to be, I approve of this metaphor.
.
I have maybe two hundred songs now that given a few days notice I could play for you, but the rest is all true, it is hard to learn new things still, and I cannot improvise the simplest bit of lead.
@punishmenthurts@Dr_Obvious@Lipidolith@actuallyautistic Learning has gotten a little harder as I've gotten older, but I can still learn things. Verdict is still out on improvisation, but I used to be pretty decent at improvising on stage.
@roknrol@Dr_Obvious@Lipidolith@actuallyautistic
.
I mean, I'm always learning another one, one or more a week, and the process sometimes seems to be getting faster and more predictable. I just mean the guitar is not advancing and it won't. It's a matter of finding really easy songs, pretty sure it always will be.
I did take a music theory class a few years ago at the community college...it would have done me more good if I could have practiced an instrument while going through it, but I learned a LOT about what makes or doesn't make music work. Not just terms, which are important for me to learn more, but actual real things that you can hear in real music.
It has helped me broaden the styles that I listen to as well...been really enlightening.
The reason that I'm hopeful for the improvisation stuff is that when I let my brain just brain and I don't have any distractions, I hear music. But the music that I hear isn't music that I've heard, as far as I know, so I'm quite eager to explore that whole thing.
Didn't really think about whether my fingers will do what they're told, but I guess if I have problems with that I'll become a DJ.
@Dr_Obvious@actuallyautistic and as long as you are playing your repertoire, nobody will believe you when you say "but I am no musician" - you look like one, you play the piano and oh, by the way, can you play this song? No? Why not? You stupid or what?
I am so bone-tired of this... my battery needs more and more time to recharge...No more masking, no more pretending, please, just let me be.
I have so much to offer, my knowledge, my experience, my wisdom... why can't this be enough as it is?