@Dr_Obvious@actuallyautistic and as long as you are playing your repertoire, nobody will believe you when you say "but I am no musician" - you look like one, you play the piano and oh, by the way, can you play this song? No? Why not? You stupid or what?
I am so bone-tired of this... my battery needs more and more time to recharge...No more masking, no more pretending, please, just let me be.
I have so much to offer, my knowledge, my experience, my wisdom... why can't this be enough as it is?