I know you don't care, but I was in the same position as you. I gave up and tried to drown myself in food and alcohol.
Things can change. Even if you are 100% sure right now that they won't. When they changed for me, my mind and body already had irreparable damage.
My memory suffered from the alcohol, my body will forever look ugly from the rapid weight gain. No amount of working out can fix that.
What I am trying to say is: Even if you don't believe in it, your attitude can change. Just like that, from one day to the next. Then you will regret your choices, but the damage is already done. Remember that.
A pretty famous song from the 80s. I only remember the intro, which sounds similar to the intro of "Take my breath away" by "Berlin". Just a bass, going Dum Dum - Dum Dum. I know nothing else, not even if the singer is male or female. Tried to find it a few times, no luck.