Not everyone is trans, homesicle. If I take a long hard look at my gender and decide that I'm happier as the man I was born than as a woman, that's my business. Trying to force me into a female body would make me just as miserable as your male one was for you.
Also I couldn't help but notice that you seem to conflate anger as a concept with masculinity.
Noticing your chains and beginning to rattle them, and encouraging your peers to do the same, is the first step to releasing yourself from them, but it is not the only step.
Speaking of, how is NixOS for gaming? I remember trying it a while ago but not being able to get the Nvidia drivers working. I've since switched to a machine with AMD graphics though.
I haven't had an opportunity to test it myself yet, but I've heard very good things about NixOS. The basic premise is that all of your system state, every config file in /etc, every package you have installed, everything, is defined by a single configuration file called configuration.nix. If you back up just your home directory and that file, you can plonk it into a brand new copy of NixOS, run a single command, and have it redownload and re-set-up everything else exactly how you left it.
Systemd breaks its own standards. Oh, were you making a replacement for this component of systemd that does some things the systemd version doesn't? Well the latest version of systemd just changed the Unix socket protocol that it uses to communicate with the rest of systemd from text based to binary. Sorry for the lack of warning.