We're visiting family, and both myself and my husband are struggling.
The family want us to enjoy ourselves, it's coming from a place of love, but family are high masking unacknowledged ND neither of us feel safe to unmask.
I'm feeling so guilty right now because yesterday was spent in an internalised anxiety spiral fighting of overwhelm during a family trip I repeatedly said I didn't want to go on. And I'm worried they think I'm sulking.
I know I could have refused point blank, but that hurts their feelings and I feel terrible about that too.
I don't think they realise how difficult they make it to "just say what you want" when you're constantly getting signals that saying no is not acceptable.