I very much want to sleep. I'm allowed to sleep from 12:30 to 4:30 am. I wake up with a jolt within a few minutes of 4:30 every day. Throughout the day I lie down and struggle to sleep, but the moment I drop off my heart starts racing.
My dad's a self-hating autist. He scapegoats me for everything he denies in himself. It's impenetrable. This trait explains the persistence of the vaccines-cause-autism conspiracy. Autistic people will believe anything rather