Yeah, I know this is killing me. Thank you for looking out for me. I'm american, so none of your supports are available.
I know my writing is inchoate. I've been alone waaay too long, and can't do linear thinking any more. I'm AuDHD, if you know what that is. Linear thinking was always tough. Plus, I'm emotionally redlined most of the time.
I do try to take care of myself. I quit smoking and even cut out caffeine. I eat healthily. Everything but sleep.