Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 198 , Tuesday 14/05/2024
Up just before 6am for some reason that will have scientists puzzled long after the Unified Field Theory is discovered!
Breakfast is done & coffee is drunk.
I sit looking at my TL & feeling a strange reluctance to engage. It’s not that anyone has upset me or that I’m particularly triggered by a toot . I just shy away from interaction with the rest of the Fediverse.
Some of it is that I feel overwhelmed by the number of folk I have to respond to - I have to respond to everyone who mentions me or who greets the world at large, it’s an unconscious imperative for me.
Most days I love this level of interaction, it energises me & elevates my spirits, but not today.
I will engage with folk, because I feel that I will failed them & myself if I don’t.
Maybe a shower first though, prevaricating ….
Ok so the day got better & SM was engaged with !
Hit Fo4 this afternoon then the usual evening activities.
Final Thoughts.
Ok struggling at the moment , thank Nuggan it’s warm & mostly sunny otherwise it might be quiet grim!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
Hopefully you had a decent day.
I get it... Low spoons make it hard to even do something like social media. I also feel I should reply as soon as I can... Thats why I always feel sorry when I have notifications left when I need to go to bed... It feels like I failed my friends to chat with them... So when I'm up again, I always wanna reply ASAP then.
Yay for the good weather!! 😁 It was very hot here...
Yay for gaming as well. 😊
Hope you're having a good night sweets 😘
@PixysJourney@Tim_McTuffty@actuallyautistic
Good morning lovelies!
Thanks for this thread!
You've both expressed how bad I feel when I miss folks messages or don't manage to reply in a timely manner 😕
When I'm at a low ebb I often feel folk want to hear anything I have to say anyway, so what's the point!
@PixysJourney@Tim_McTuffty@actuallyautistic
Good morning lovelies!
Thanks for this thread!
You've both expressed how bad I feel when I miss folks messages or don't manage to reply in a timely manner 😕
When I'm at a low ebb I often feel folk won't want to hear anything I have to say anyway, so what's the point!
@DoubleTreble
Good morning 🌸
Yeah I'm the same...
When I'm down I don't think I'd be any interesting so why would I write to bore others with it 😔
But I also feel guilty when I don't reply to sweet toots by friends...
It’s hard to manage sometimes , sometimes I just don’t have the energy to deal with anything, but then I feel guilty & lazy so I push myself to at least answer mentions & say hi & bye.
If it helps I always wanna read your stuff sweetie 🤗🥰
@Tim_McTuffty@PixysJourney@actuallyautistic
Thanks that's so sweet of you, and mutual!!
I always know there are some folks here who will raise a smile and make the day easier to deal with 🥰🥰