I am a lazy piece of shit.
I'd like to learn some programming, morse code, perhaps another language as well.
But I quickly loose any motivation. At least for the past 2 years. I do get some occasional bursts of motivation, but usually I often don't feel like doing anything at all anymore. I wouldn't even breathe if it wasn't automatic.
Preferably I'd be dead. I'd have 0 issues, create 0 issues, have no regrets. It would be better for everyone, myself included.