@chevalier26@actuallyautistic before I figured out my 'tism diagnosis I hyperfocused on "healing" trauma for about 8 years. The biggest lessons?
For me, it doesn't matter what is masking. It matters how well I love myself in this gestures broadly madness. The more I love myself, the more real I am, the more flexible I am.
Shifting your nervous system or making lasting internal change takes forever. Stay focused on 1% effort/change and you'll get there, just years later then you think.