My post yesterday about delayed processing of anger was not happenstance.
My ex-bf did something on Friday that showed he has no regards for my feelings. In my book, he effectively lied about why he did not want to be with me. If you have feelings of déjà vu, you're right on the money. This is similar to what happened with the ex-gf I called my sweetest success, and my bitterest failure. She lied about our breakup.
I was raging with anger yesterday. If we had an interaction I would have rained hellfire on the boy.
What would I have accomplished? I would have made a bad situation even worse. Oh, I would have felt a dose of self-satisfaction, but at what cost? It wouldn't have fixed anything.
I expect we're going to talk again. I expect that when we do, instead of raining hellfire, I'll express my hurt and my disappointment. Truth be told, even if I had rained hellfire, I would have expressed my hurt and my disappointment, but a message embedded in a thick layer of hellfire is unlikely to be heard.
I'm going also to tell him that the friendship between him and I is over. I can't abide liars. I can't abide people who are blind to my feelings.
Maybe those who decide to cut contact with me after a breakup are onto something. If they lied about our breakup, those lies could be exposed.
I've written about the uselessness of anger before:
