You got sold on the capitalist rat race, friend. It's not a competition. There's so much stuff you could do that you haven't even considered that's way better than the stuff you're thinking on. Stow away on a ship, climb a mountain, build a birdhouse, grow a garden, create a lascivious interpretive dance that you do in the town square until they throw you in the nuthouse now you need to charm the doctors to get out.
Think outside the box before you spend so much time thinking you're not good enough for some random criteria.