@actuallyautistic@actuallyaudhd Thanks all of you for replying and sorry for disappearing when yous very kindly did. Asking a thing meant people replied to the thing (thankyou) but then my mind created a demand to respond and so I just didn't open the app. Ugghh! Anyway an update/some context - I'm doing an art course and for our final show I have a mini-installation including a painting and drawings exploring masking, a painting exploring stimming, a painting thinking about flow and I'm currently making a 'barrier' that is covered in handwritten text. One strand includes the text from the community on this thread which i then overwrote with @pathfinder 's words about 'being disbelieved and contradicted and denied my own awareness' Thanks again all!