@dyani@pathfinder@actuallyautistic Hmmm. OK. I'd not considered B, I think that bit is important.
And in order to do this whole thing, I first need to be clear what is in my control, and what is not, and focus only on things that I can actually do something about.
That lesson, about "only focus on what I can control" was a big breakthrough in dealing with my anxiety, but it seems I constantly have to learn it over an over again, I keep falling into the same patterns again.