Yeah, I thought it sounded unhinged. But I'm desperate, and don't want to put myself at risk of a preventable death.
I've spent the greater part of my life as a shut in largely because I'm a sniffling, coughing, sneezing mess all day and night every day for 6-8 months of the year. And simply a sniffly mess for the rest.
I had one good summer last year and I can't believe what I'm missing. Being able to do activities like hiking, or biking, going to the grocery store without being treated like I have the plague. Actually being able to go out to a restaurant or public places. Making friends, and actually being able to join them. Going to the movies...etc Not having to carry a whole-ass box a Kleenex with me everywhere I go.
It made me into a desperate man, realizing how much life I'm missing.
The comments here are fantastic, and incredibly helpful.