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Had my final assessment for autism the other day

I was diagnosed 7 years ago as autistic, though I didnt realise at the time it was a diagnosis, I was informed a few years later that what I thought was a specialists opinion was actually a formal diagnosis. But due to family history, my adhd was addressed first. They were supposed to refer me to autism specialist after the adhd...

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I do, yes. Not with everything, but particularly around things like emotional support, I've always evaded. It used to bring on a flood of very overwhelming emotion that I suppose I wasn't in touch with until someone pointed out to me: "this is bad, are you sure you're okay?"

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Gave me a chuckle. Tried to go out in Soho, London the other night with a friend - locals will know. It was horrible.

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Sounds like youre having an awesom time there. Great pictures too. Horse story was cool.

Is this the toad?

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Someone loaned me a copy of philip k dicks the reader last year. I already loved cyberpunk and dystopic cinema, and seeing where a lot of those plots originated and the writing style got me hooked. Ive read sooo many SF and cyberbunk novels over the last year because of it.

I hadnt read fiction for years, back in college I read will self and william burroughs, which in hindsight probably falls under the same umbrella. I didnt have an internet device back then so it was only what I found in the library and not a lot really held my attention. Glad someone who knew me said hey, youll probably like this.

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Hey I think ive seen your hinge profile

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haha, sorry if it made you uncomfortable! It's a really common cue on a lot of profiles 😅 So many people use the apps now you just get used to the idea that everyone knows

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14 year old me thought of themselves as a weird freak

I didnt struggle at school academically, and I wasnt diagnosed until I was 29, but I felt this too. I didnt know why I was different though.

But I suppose the late diagnosis may have helped me equip myself better when I finally got it with all the new info there is on it. I still feel like (still am) a bit of a weirdo, but ive grown older and and appreciate myself more. Ive dipped my toes into trying to 'be normal' in my life and it hasnt really left me feeling happy.

I did okay acedemically in school, but my 20s were extremely hard, and I experienced a lot frustration throughout - good grades doesnt equate to preparedness for adult life, not even a little. Head hitting and meltdowns became very frequent. I got fired a lot of times, it was a struggle to keep my flat.

But I know a lot more about myself now and I mostly do I better job of life because of it.

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