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Tim_McTuffty

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An itinerant squirrel poet, aka @MAJ1

New to the whole word smithing thing so don’t be too harsh.

Write as the muse hits me in the face, so output will probably be irregular, but I want to explore a world of art n poetry that has previously eluded me so will be boosting along those lines.

Boosting is the algorithm here, so if you like my stuff please get it out there 🙏

‪https://justmytoots.com/@Tim_Mctuffty

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 245 , Saturday 29/06/2024

Just another day in paradise (to quote Phil Collins)

I spent all day ‘chasing the elephant’ -> stop , think where we are , got it ? Right , good, I’m glad we got that sorted !😆

It was too close to being a chore today , I don’t like being pressured into doing stuff, by myself or others.

I did have a good time though, had a lot of laughs with loads of Peeps , who enrich my life beyond all expectation!

I may take tomorrow ‘off’ & just play on the PS5 or read , there is such a thing as ‘too much of a good thing’.
I would hate for my brain to perceive SM as a requirement , rather than a pass time.

Final Thoughts.

To Toot or not to Toot, that is the question,
wether tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous dad jokes, Or to take arms against a sea of memes…

(Apologies to The Bard 😋)

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏 🤗🥰

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 244 , Friday 28/06/2024

A really rough & disturbed night last night, the windows were open to keep the room cool but there was a decent wind & that was making a din. The PF in my right foot decide that it was jealous of all the attention Geoff has been getting & played up all night!

Thankfully today has been a quiet day , no dramas , or need to interact with anyone .
Spent a chunk of the day in the Fediverse chasing the elephant. 😊

Pizza & Thatchers zero for tea & a bit of a Supernatural fest.

Final Thoughts.

Peace - the most elusive of gifts for the ND mind I think .

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@pathfinder @actuallyautistic Evening Kevin 👋😊

I’ve never got used to them either, it worse when your just to tired to do anything but lay there in the desperate hope that Morpheus will callin you at some point before you have to get up.

I hope we both get a better nights sleep tonight !

Be safe my friend 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Hey Cynni 🤗🥰

Awww thanks 🤗

Ta for the meme tis excellent ! 🤗🥰

Not caught me yet 😜😂

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@BernieDoesIt @actuallyautistic Hi Bernie 👋😊

That might be it.
It’s nice to just rest in silence sometimes though!

Have a really good Saturday 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Tee hee hee ! 😆

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 243 , Thursday 27/06/2024

Up around 6am after a disturbed night.

Achieved a couple of things today managed to descale the coffee machine , I was gonna clean it but that is not one of my favourite jobs so I fixed the kitchen tap which has been sticking for a while instead.

I also managed to rearrange the appointment with Beth, the MH Practitioner.

The sock aid that the Occupational Therapist recommended arrived today, I am officially old !
It doesn’t help that I went for the one with the nice fleecy lining rather than the cheaper plastic ones 🤦‍♂️
Today the sock aid , next week the zimmer frame!

On the whole today has been a much better day than yesterday.

Final Thoughts.

Life is such a rollercoaster, the best we can do is hold on for dear life !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@skyfire747 @actuallyautistic Afternoon Puzzler 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Awww thank you for the meme - it’s cute !

Coffee machine is still awaiting its clean! 🙄🤦‍♂️
I’ll try & get to it after catching up on here.

Have a good day Cynni 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 242 , Wednesday 26/06/2024

TL:DR Occupational Therapy, socks & being geographically challenged !

Up around 5:45 , for those of you wondering about Geoff he has slunk off for now, satisfied that there are not enough puritans in my diet to trigger him!

Spent some time tidying up for the incoming visitor - shifted all the junk to my bedroom, which it turns out he needed to see 🙄🤦‍♂️

So had the Occupational Therapist round this morning a young chap, who was friendly & patient with my rabbiting on.

There is not a lot that he can do to help, mostly because as far as OT goes I don’t need a lot. He is going to discuss my case with the community MH team to see if they can help ( I hope Beth - who I was supposed to see today , see below, isn’t in that meeting ! ) .

He did say that he could try & help get past the agoraphobia & then help me with some of the more crippling social issues.

He also got me to order a sock aid - because I don’t have full mobility in my right leg & putting my sock on is frankly flipping annoying! So we will see how the sock aid helps. The one I ordered looks like an out sized sling shot 😆

I was due to see the Mental Health Practitioner at 15:00 today , sat at my local surgery for an hour before realising that she was sitting waiting for me 3 miles down the road at another surgery ! 🙄🤦‍♂️
Classic lesson in ‘read what it says in the text’ as opposed to letting autopilot run the show!

So now I have to wait to see if she will call me to book another appointment.

In my defence no-one in my local GPs surgery had the faintest clue if she was in the building or not!
If nothing else one wonders what they would have done in a fire or emergency situation 🙄🤦‍♂️

So now I’m stressed to buggery about missing the appointment & wasting her valuable time & her being, rightly, pissed off at me!

I’ve had time to calm down now so I’m just berating myself constantly for being a plonker!

Final Thoughts.

One of the possible co-morbidities of being Autistic is anxiety - & boy was mine triggered today.
Another on is ones mind shutting down under stress - & leading one to make really silly mistakes.
Ah well tomorrow is another day!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

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@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic Awww thank you DT 🤗🥰

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏 🤗🥰

Geoff is being good the PF in my right foot is kicking off again though 🙄🤦‍♂️

Hey ho.

😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@ldmay65 @actuallyautistic Hey Donna 🤗🥰

Oh they’re a pain in the butt sometimes 🙄🤦‍♂️

Hope all is ok with you 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@si_irini @actuallyautistic Thank you Irini 🙏 🤗🥰

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic I walked on it , which it really hates.

I need to find some pain relief that works, apparently de-sheathing ones nerves requires something more than codeine !

It’s a lot better today though .

😊🫶🐿️🖖

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 241 , Tuesday 25/06/2024

Up around 6am as per , house elf duties have to be done.

Once again I get to around 10am & very last drop of motivation has been driven from me.

Today is bathroom cleaning day.

I put out new towels, which herself put thru the washing machine , I really don’t know what she does with them but they end up in the airing cupboard so stiff you could use them as offensive weapons!

You would think I would be used to this after 25 years, but no, it still triggers me.

Along with all the other triggers of stuff not cleaned , stuff not put away properly & overfeeding the cats .. poof all the plans for today have been eroded away.

Still I guess I should be grateful ,we have a roof over our heads, a car to take us places & food to eat.
Many have so much less.

Just had a call from an Occupational Therapist, they wanna come round in the morning & assess me … eeek!!!
Then I have to go see Beth , the MH Practitioner who first suspected that I was ND & set me on this path.
I left frustrated last time because she failed to understand how triggering Mrs S. is.

Final Thoughts.

I don’t know what it is like for other couples , but I REALLY wish Mrs S. would treat this as OUR house not HER house.

I am really stressed about tomorrow, a stranger in the house judging me, judging the fact that I have not been able to do so many things around the house that should have been done!

Roast Squirrel anyone ?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@HeatherMJ @actuallyautistic I’ve been decorating the front bedroom since before Lockdown 🙄🤦‍♂️

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏 Cynni, sorry I only just got to this after you have gone to bed.

Beth rang today & was really kind & we have rebooked an appointment for the end of July.

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic That’s no problem lovely , I know you have an enormous amount on your plate at the moment - roll on August eh!

Thank you 🙏 I will try my bestest !

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 240 , Monday 24/06/2024

TL:DR

Up around 6am having slept fairly well.

Sorted out the bins & various other chores & then settled down to catch up on Fediverse frolics!

So two things drifted across my mind today:

Firstly I was preparing salad yesterday & as is my occasional wont I mistook the tip of the ring finger on my left hand for a radish & merrily sliced into it with a very sharp knife!
Understand that this was not a deep or in any way heath threatening cut, it was a tiny cut that , after about 12 hours with a plaster round it is more or less healed.
My point is this , it hurt like buggery & bled like I’d hit an artery! What is it about ones fingers that this should be? I mean I know that I’m on blood thinners for the old Ectasia but really you see folks on ER with their limbs hanging off who don’t bleed as much as a when you cut the tip of your finger! Also I know that that ones finger tips are full of nerves but come on - a little sense of proportion wouldn’t go amiss !

Secondly Brits , like my good self, are renowned the world over for our favourite topic of conversation , namely the weather! Hey we live (currently) in a temperate climate & have a lot of weather!!
I say we converse, lets be honest here what we do generally is complain about it , we have mastered the art of chronic bitching in fact ! It’s either too cold , too wet , too foggy & rarely too hot!
For the last 2 days the country was nearly silent (apart from the footy fans , but let’s not go there!) why - because for 2 days we passed thru the eye of the storm (pun intended) & hit 20ºc , with sunny weather !
This is pretty much the ideal temperature for your average Brit, so we were, temporarily stumped! How could one complain?
Today the temperature continued up so normal service was resumed & we explored the unusual concept of hot , dry (if muggy) weather!

Struggling to concentrate on pastimes today again, I need to get back in there on the gaming front, the ‘Adrift’ NMS expedition needs completing before I run out of time !

Final Thoughts.

Summer is finally here, warm weather, salads & the sounds of the local brass band practicing in the background. Still there’s bound to be something to complain about 😆.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@HeatherMJ @actuallyautistic Indeed 😆

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic Ouch !

Sadly I was abusing radishes so my finger just gushed like a mini version of the Emperor fountain at Chatsworth!

(Ok there maybe a tiny bit of artistic license there 😆 )

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic It does !
I must have tonnes of it lurking somewhere , nary a sign of a vampire around the Squirrel Den!

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic It’s an interesting idea - once upon a time when I cooked a lot more than I do now I would always have a garlic bulb lurking somewhere.

I wonder if lazy garlic would be as effective … I could acquire a jar of that.

Thanks 😊

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic It works on cold callers too 😆

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic I keep meaning to answer with something like “Hi you are thru to cannibals are us, please place your order after the beep! “
But I have the memory of a concussed goldfish so I always forget 🙄🤦‍♂️ 😆

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic Things to experiment with !

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Hey Cynni 😊

It was hardly an amputation, but it hurt like buggery!

The weather is mad these days , so unpredictable, ah well better hot than cold I guess,at least I don’t need the heating on!

Would love to get some NMS explorations done with you my CCDP 🧚‍♀️🥰

😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic Morning mon ami 👋😊

I had to look that up - I’m not sure that show ever made it to the UK.

What makes you think I’m not like that now 😆

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@skyfire747 @actuallyautistic Evening Anthony 👋😊

What you never had finger rolls with a salad ???

Thank you 🙏

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Ach , who amount us cannot move house & play NMS at the same time 😜😂

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@skyfire747 @actuallyautistic You antipodeans , such pedestrian tastes 😆

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic There was some amazing comedy back in the day, proper fall off your chair laughing stuff.

Why thank you 😆

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@lunaticatlarge @actuallyautistic Well I’m more in the middle, a lot of the older stuff from the ‘60s I remember from re-runs, but still funny as owt !

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 239 , Sunday 23/06/2024

Got a decent nights sleep last night Geoff behaved himself which was nice.
Up initially around 4am , had a chat with a dear friend & then managed another hour or so snoozing , finally getting up around 8.

On the whole not a bad day.

So I get loads of notifications on Mastodon because I like to interact with as many folk as I can, it can take hours to catch up sometimes. I have the time most days so this is not a problem. Sometimes though it is hard for me to do more than just answer with a hug or a smile because it is hard for me to formulate answers that will not offend or seem glib or cutting.
My autistic mind makes me blunt, it makes me say things that lack social subtleties , it makes me see over familiar or too distant. So when I cannot come up with response that I feel will be acceptable I fall back onto smiles & hugs to show I care hopefully.
Also there are only so many hours in a day , when one has 200 toots to respond to then sometimes brevity is required.
I was criticised for being too brief today, all I can say is I’m sorry ,I’m only a small squirrel of Pooh bear like intelligence & I try my best.

Final Thoughts.

I was playing around with Mona (the Mastodon app I use ) today & have managed to lose all my user notes that I used to keep track of time offsets & nicknames , birthdays etc. Very frustrating because they were crucial;l aids for one such as I with the memory of a concussed goldfish!
Hey ho.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@HeatherMJ @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏

You too sweetie 🤗🥰

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@DoubleTreble @HeatherMJ @actuallyautistic Awww Thank you 🙏

Have a lovely evening DT 🤗🥰

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Hey Cynni 🤗🥰

It wasn’t meant as a criticism, merely a reflection on my inability to communicate properly. Worded badly. I’m sorry it upset you so. 😟

I think this is a classic example of 2 autistic folk proving that they have issues reading people & communicating effectively.

Human communication is seen as one of the most complex activities humans have to learn, to paraphrase Lorna Wing ‘it’s no wonder Autistic folk find it difficult’ . In those of us who have less obvious autistic traits, the failure to communicate effectively is often the giveaway I suspect.

NT folk will volunteer a “I struggle with communication too’ here but, as I discovered in my ASD assessment report, ND folk don’t just struggle because we either never learnt the skills or are ‘socially awkward’ although those reasons can apply too, we fundamentally have no concept of certain key components of human communication. We never developed them because our Neurospicy brains went off on a tangent.

Ironically a thought about sometimes needing brevity in my replies has lead to a fairly chunky response.

Thank you 🙏 it was not a bad day at all 🤗

It was late when I wrote the last of my diary entry so I had completely forgotten about the gardening at that point, but thank you 🤗🥰

I shall try harder to answer your toots, my CCDP 🧚‍♀️🥰

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic You too CCDP 🧚‍♀️🥰💜

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@ldmay65 @DoubleTreble @HeatherMJ @actuallyautistic Aww Thank you 🙏 🤗🥰

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 238 , Saturday 22/06/2024

I was up at just gone 6:30am far too early for a Saturday but it’s less hassle to make breakfast for both of us than it is to do it any other way.

My feet seem to be improving , walking around barefoot (well in socks but same difference) with not too much pain.

Today has been quiet, mostly floating around the Fediverse , a little reading. Some chores so the house is vaguely habitable.

Tried some alcohol free cider tonight , let’s see if Geoff complains later!

Final Thoughts.

Just enjoying the moment.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@aspiedan @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏

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@ldmay65 @actuallyautistic Thanks Donna 🤗🥰

You enjoy the rest of your day sweetie 😊🫶🐿️🖖

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@DoubleTreble @actuallyautistic I know 😭😭😭

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Awww Thank you 🙏

Love the pic !

Sleep well CCDP 🧚‍♀️🥰💜

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 237 , Friday 21/06/2024

Geoff was a good lad last night , the fact that he was medicated into oblivion might explain why 😆

Up at around 6am to find Friday was a glorious day !

Loads of sunshine today had the patio doors open right up to the moment when Mrs S. decided she was going to bed at 8pm (her usual time) & closed them. Seems my enjoyment of the sounds of nature and the lovely evening air are not a factor. 🙄🤦‍♂️

Finished the migration of MAJ1 to Beige.Party by shipping across the followers list , this all worked fine & there are just some pending follows outstanding.

I did a few little tasks today nothing too extravagant. Made best use of the bright sunshine by running the clothes washer thru a maintenance wash amongst other things.

Final Thoughts.

I would really like to go to the coast, but herself is too busy (reading) & Geoff would object at the moment, maybe later in the summer!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 236 , Thursday 20/06/2024

Geoff was subdued with a new course of colchicine yesterday then pain killers to make sur eye behaved overnight.

Was up late last night moving MAJ1 to Beige.Party, so many folks have sound him in his new home & shared timelines with him again , very chuffed !

The CDP 🧚‍♀️ kept me company, for which I am grateful 😊

My foot is a lot better today, I’m still favouring it & elevating it but it is getting there!

Spent most of the day flolloping around the Fediverse (keen Hitch-hikers will argue that only live mattresses on Squornshellous Zeta can flollop but I would argue Squirrels can too!)

Had posh fish n chips for tea, smoked salmon & salad with chippy chips ! Yummy & mostly healthy .

Final Thoughts.

My brain is trying to second guess my moving MAJ1 , wondering if it was the right thing to do, wondering if it would change the experience of the Fediverse .
I stamped hard on these thoughts & looked at the positive side, that folk have reshared my MAJ1 timeline , that peeps are engaging & that I have a second account where I can wax lyrical. 😊

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@PixysJourney @actuallyautistic Thank you 🙏

Another lovely pic too 🤗🥰

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