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PixysJourney

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Howdy, I'm Cynni Pixy (nicknames obviously). I've got several other accounts but they have different specific goals. Here I want to share my journey through life.

My avatar is a cartoon image of my dog, surrounded by rainbow colored hearts. She's a brown Labrador with greying snout (age 10).
My header is a picture of my Labrador resting her head on a couch side.

Soon: #PixysHouse for all the crazy house updates.

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:neuro: Saying ello to all awesome 🌶 / / peeps! :ablobcatrainbow:

I've been Tooting a lot about my current struggles relating to: moving/changing life/changing routine/being social on social media. Maybe you've noticed... 😉

I'm looking for peeps to follow! Peeps to chat with. Maybe you've been in "my" situation, maybe you'll be in "my" situation (soon), or maybe you just wanna try out your social skills (like I do).

Please drop me a Toot!

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This time, this Toot, I will be brave and tag the Actually Autistics group for a boost :boosts_ok_gay:

Be warned, I either Toot my fingers off, or I'll lurk from a safe hiding spot...

Have a fabulous day 🌸

🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾

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Awwww 🥰 fankoos 💜
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 224 , Saturday 08/06/2024

A disturbed night full of nightmares & a dodgy stomach.

Up around 7am , now I can walk more or less normally I’m back on breakfast duty.

A quiet day again, reading & catching up on some more Supernatural.

Risked Pizza for tea as my stomach was feeling much better - time will tell how wise a decision that was.

Final Thoughts.

Reading up on a gout friendly diet - seems there are a number of changes that I need to make to avoid future flare ups.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Owwww so glad things are improving for you!!!
Hopefully you can make some adjustments to improve things even more 🤗
Have a good night sweets 😘

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 223 , Friday 07/06/2024

Up around 6am again , my foot was much better but without the codeine to balance the side effects of the Colchicine my digestive system went on the rampage!

Lots of exercise up & down the stairs today - it wasn’t pretty.

Come tea time & I was able to keep a glass of water inside me, so soup & a bread roll has been consumed - results being awaited as we speak (7:35pm)

Hopefully all will be well & I can have a naughty pizza for tea tomorrow !

Final Thoughts.

I am so glad my foot is so much better, that was a very unpleasant experience !

Special thanks to all who have supported me with love & laughs ! 🤗🥰

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Yay for the foot doing better! Hopefully the meds can ween off soon too. 😊 I know how hard it is to be dependent on meds and it's not a good thing.... So hopefully you'll heal up soon again!
Less meds could also help with your tummy getting back to normal. 😊
Have a good night sweets 😘 🤗

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Owww slowly and hopefully steady then as well.
That's a bummer... 😔 Good sleep seems hard to come by these days...
🤗

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 220 , Tuesday 04/06/2024

My Pavlovian response got me up at 06:30, so hobbled down to breakfast.

The meds the Doc gave me yesterday are doing the biz as far as reducing the pain goes, if not the swelling.
It’s so nice to be able to walk again , even if it is only a shuffling gait!
The meds are also messing with my digestive system, had an egg butty for lunch which grumbled its way thru me this afternoon. So rather than a some ham & a bit of salad for tea it was soup, again !

Oh I hope this speed of recovery is maintained!

Final Thoughts.

Every thought I have at the moment is directed at getting my foot back to normal & not looking like a prop front the Elephant Man !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Yay for the meds!! 😁
I hope you'll feel better soon... 🤗
And not eating too much can also be that you need less as you do less now? You burn less because you're more stationary? 😊

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 219 , Monday 03/06/2024

Another disturbed night, slightly better than last night because I had learnt some lessons on ewhat my foot would & would not tolerate.

Went to see the GP this morning, I have, in fact, got gout . So on a 4 day course of Colchicine … the GP was very specific about the 4 days - apparently 5 days = my entire digestive system liquifying & a decent stay in the local hospital !

The new meds are working a storm in association with the pain killers , this evening I am walking (well shuffling) sans crutches ! It hurts like hell, but importantly it is bearable !
I hope that this means that I will get some decent sleep tonight !

Also made an appointment to see yon GP about my ADHD assessment in a week or so , so the journey continues !

Final Thoughts.

I am so relieved to be coming out of the other side of this gout flare up , is has been one of the most painful experiences of my life !
Hopefully future episodes will be avoided via ongoing medication.

I really hope that seeing yon GP later this month will be a positive move in my ASD journey !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Booh for the gout but yay for the quick appointment and helpful meds! And be careful with the meds!!!
Yay for the adhd appointment as well. 😊
Hopefully the meds help you to have a good night sweets! 🤗
Take it easy and try to keep the weight off the foot when you can, elevate it so it can relax. 😊
But I guess DuckDuckGo and the GP may have mentioned that as well 😉
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 217 , Sunday 02/06/2024

So last night was fairly awful. My foot felt like someone was trying to rip it off while hitting it with a hammer !
I think I can safely say that it was the 2nd most painful experience of my life - the first was tearing my Achilles !

Mrs S. went adventuring in the loft to find my crutches (guess when the last time I used them was ! ) because my left foot is not weight bearing at all !

I finally got some relief after sailing dangerously close to an OD level of pain killers , & eventually fell asleep.

Been depending heavily on Mrs S. for help n support today , but still having to finish jobs she starts / ½ does. I am sitting heavily on my trigger responses , she is trying to help after all .

So the meds might be holding back the very worst of the pain, & spacing me out slightly , but it is also affecting my appetite. I really don’t feel like eating at the moment.

My toe is now really badly swollen , GP will be getting a call in the morning & hopefully I’ll get an appointment!

Final Thoughts.

I’m exhausted now, lack of sleep & the fact that limping around the house is actually quite tiring !
Hopefully have a better night tonight !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
🫂 Hope you get a quick appointment 🌸 it sounds like you could use it!!!
Glad Mrs Skwerl got the crutches for you, and that's she's trying to help best as she can. The pain may enhance some triggers as well, so do try to be kind to her as she tries... She may not do it all like you'd do it... But hey, she's not used to doing it! 🤗
Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 the GP will see you first thing!!! And that (s)he can help you with some form of treatment/meds/big saw 😉

Hope you're having a good night sweets 😘 I'll try to catch up with you tomorrow!!! Well, this morning when you read this 😉

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Hmmmmm some people may be euh... Challenged in some ways? 🤔
Ah well, breathe and keep doing that... 🤗
You're very welcome 🌸

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 217 , Saturday 01/06/2024

Woke up in agony at around 1:30am it seems that I may have gout in my left big toe (apparently one can inherit it - thanks Dad! ) & it hurts like a barsteward !
Hit the co-codamol , pain med of last resort (I need a high dose so I only use it when totally necessary ) & once that kicked in I was able to get back to sleep

The weather picked up thru the day & this evening is lovely & sunny.

Our neighbours - 3 doors down are having a party - an all day party - with the volume cranked to 11 , it’s becoming annoying because their taste in music is questionable to say the least!

I really hope that they pack it in before it gets late , it will be hard enuf to sleep without some tit playing Dennis waterman at 200Db ! 🙄🤦‍♂️

Starting a Blade fest tonight , been a while , still a good ‘turn your brain off’ movie , lots of tommy sauce & toasted vampires 😆

I’m high off the back of the pain killers at the moment , one of the reasons that they are a drug of last resort , it is making the whole experience slightly surreal!

Final Thoughts.

1st day of summer - please can we have some warm weather !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Hopefully you survived the day dear! Glad the meds help, even though they make you zone out some (which could have been helpful I see 😉).
Call the GP on Monday!!! You like the GP as much as I do, you enjoy calling as much as I do, but still... Call! If you can't see one doc for both issues, then schedule two separate appointments. Get one for that foot first, the adhd is less pressing than the pain!!!
If I can call the vet for Arwen and make a quick appointment, you can do it for your foot! 😉 (hope this helped, I think some other peeps may have given the same advice so maybe.....).
Have a good night sweets 😘
I'll catch you when you're up again 🤗 🌸

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 216 , Friday 31/05/2024

Up just after 6am today.

A quiet day, the only thing of real note is that what ever is wrong with my left big toe is getting worse.
There are no signs of injury but it hurts to touch & is making it hard to get comfy at night.
Today I caught it as I tripped over one of the Varmints & it hurt like a bugger !
I am slowly falling apart - if anyone wants me for medical science now’s the time to get your bid on ! 😆

The weather has slowly improved today , this evening is lovely & sunny, if a little chilly !

Final Thoughts.

Even being retired, Friday is a special day. I realised it’s June tomorrow - nearly 6 months gone already !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Good day sweets,
I hope you get to a GP and have that foot checked out before it falls off 😉 better be safe than sorry!
I've had a busy day where I helped mum. And worried over my gall, she can't seem to catch a break... 😔
Hope you're having a good night!
🤗 Hugs from me and boops from my royal sweetness 🐾 💜

@actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 215 , Thursday 30/05/2024

Up around 6:30am today.

Breakfast & chores followed.

I was really tired today, & kept falling asleep at odd moments.

We went wild this evening had had pulled pork in a BBQ sauce with chips & sweetcorn for tea, livin the dream here in deepest darkest Yorkshire !

Final Thoughts.

The world is such a tough place at the moment, my heart goes out to those sharing my TL who are struggling thru far worse than I have to put up with!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Haha be careful with all the foods... Or I'll have to make AI Skwerl images where the body Armour doesn't fit the Skwerl anymore as he's too round 😂 Hihi.... 😉

Hope you're having a good night sweets. Hey, it's almost Friyay there 😉

Hugs from Arwen and me! 🐾 💜

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 214 , Wednesday 29/05/2024

Up a little later today as Mrs S. was working from home.

Still fighting the agoraphobia , sometimes I wish I didn’t live so very far from my family, they would come round & drag me out.
But they live nearly 100 miles away & have their own lives.

Spent the morning totally indecisive about what to do.

Made some egg sandwiches for me n Mrs S. for lunch , then , as per had to clear up & wash the dishes too.

Ended up reading for a couple of hours then hit Fo4 after lunch.

Went wild & forsook the soup option for tea, in favour of spaghetti hoops with a couple of slices of toast - I really need to break out of the house so I can get some real food !

Final Thoughts.

Stupid brain going nuts about going outside !

I need to get myself out of this current episode , it’s not as bad as some I’ve had , but it is doing my tree in!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Ello sweets 😘
Sorry you're struggling with not being able to get out (and get decent stuffs). I'm even further away so I can't do anything to help, except be here to chat if you'd like...
Hopefully you had a good evening and you're having a good night!
🤗 😘

@actuallyautistic

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You're very welcome 🌸 🤗 🫶🏻
I also enjoy chats with you, MLS 🫶🏻
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 207 , Wednesday 22/05/2024

Up early as Mrs S. was in the office today.

Felt a lot better today , eating almost normally , just feeling somewhat knackered still.

There’s a calm, peacefulness when I’m on my own, especially at the moment.

After yesterday’s epic ‘War n Peace’ entry there is not much to add today.

Final Thoughts.

I’m hoping that full digestive services will be restored!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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🤗 Glad you're feeling a bit better. And yeah, the moments we're on our own can be quite good as we can be ourselves all the way then... 😊
Have a good night sweets 😘

@actuallyautistic

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Question to fellow folks... :confusedparrot:

For what sort of toots could I use hashtags like or the previous two I just used?

I Toot quite a bit about me and my quirky way life. But I never really know if I "should" add any ND hashtags as the "silly" things I Toot about are quite normal to me. If that makes sense 🤔...

I'm proud enough, these days, of who I am. But I wonder if and when it would be good to add some of these tags... Maybe it could help connect with other peeps like me 😇.

Fankoos 🫶🏻 for your help! 🌸

@actuallyautistic

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@actuallyautistic
And of course now I wonder if it makes sense to ask if I could use the tags? I can always use them, but I don't want to use them wrong, if that makes sense... 🤔
I just easily worry too much about way too many things...
Thanks again!
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@jacquiharper
Thank you 🌸
I don't think I know how not to overthink though... I've always worried and then some... 🤔
And I'll definitely keep sharing Arwen 🐾 when I can, thank you 💜 I mostly share her snaps on my Pixelfed these days, but sometimes I boost them on this account. 😉
Fankoos 🫶🏻
@actuallyautistic

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@pathfinder
Fankoos 🫶🏻
I'm just worried in a way that people may feel I don't use the tags correct and maybe end up blocking me because of that.

I'd like to tag my journal and daily things posts with the tags, but I was in doubt if they'd be "good enough" to be tagged... 🤔

I know, I worry about the most silly things! 😂 But after being told so often that I did things wrong, I'd like to know "the rules" now so I can apply them as I should. If that makes sense 🤔

Thanks 🌸 again!

@actuallyautistic

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:ablobcatnod: all the way! 👍🏻

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Fankoos 🫶🏻 again! 🤗

I guess I can't ever please everyone 😉 but indeed, it's what "we do", we like the rules so we know what to expect and what is expected of us.

I'll experiment a bit with upcoming toots, let's see how it will play out...

Thank you 🌸

@actuallyautistic

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@Zumbador
Thank you 🌸
I always try to respectful towards others. But that's maybe also why I worry so much...
And yeah, we can't be friends with everyone, we don't have to be. But I also never wanna be "that person" that annoys others and leaves a bad feeling... If that makes sense 🤔
Thanks again! I'm very grateful for all your kind replies! 🌸

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Fankoos :neurodiversity:

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Fankoos 🫶🏻 I'll do my best... 😊
I'll try to use the force... 😇
But I've never been too good at that 😉

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Awww 🫶🏻 Fankoos!
This means a lot to me and is very helpful. 😊
I wish I didn't always feel so insecure, like I'm intruding something if I'd use the hashtags... 😊 If that makes sense... 🤔
I'll try to use the tags if I wish to connect to fellow auties then 😉 let's see how that will work out.
Thanks again! 🌸

@actuallyautistic

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@Tooden
That's me for sure! 😁
And thank you! 🌸
I'll do my best and try to use the tags when I'd like to reach fellow auties 😉
@pathfinder @actuallyautistic

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@jaymy
Thank you 🌸
That's indeed a good way of looking at it.
Use it as an invite for conversation. 😊

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 205 , Tuesday 21/05/2024

TL:DR Late up today , so was more or less ignored. Clues to whether I’m AuDHD & if I’m going thru a burnout period came to light from fellow ND Peeps.

I had a somewhat enforced lay in this morning, in that I was so exhausted that I simply slept thru all the noise that would usually wake me up.
I finally got up around 07:30. Life obviously went on without me, even though Mrs S. was working from home.

Me: I’m a total introvert & wish to be alone.
Also Me when wife zones me out because I was late to get up: I’m so lonely !!!
Is the mind of an ND bananas or what ! (Possibly some for of nut in my case 🤦‍♂️ )

I risked a ‘proper’ breakfast this morning - I seem to have survived it 😊

I would normally have cleaned the bathroom today, but because I’m not feeling so good that didn’t happen. I know from past experience it won’t get done until I feel well enough, be that days or even weeks 🙄🤦‍♂️

I wrote a little while back , when I got the results of my assessment thru , that the Consultant Psychiatrist had suggested that I be assessed for ADHD too. That is currently on hold.
But , & here’s the thing I read a toot ( linked below) from @ashleyspencer that totally spoke to me & I recognised EVERYTHING she was talking about !
Well call me a Squirrel & bounce a walnut off me ‘ed !
I number of other folk on here have suggested that I had ADHD symptoms , but I could never put the whole package together in my own head to the point that I ‘felt’ it!
Maybe I need to pull the whole ‘getting ADHD assessment’ off the back burner ?

I also realised ,based on a toot from @pathfinder (again see the link below) that I may well be experiencing a period of autistic burnout - it seems to be so similar , in key ways to where I am at the moment. No wonder I’m struggling!

Got back into the post-apocalyptic world of Fo4 this afternoon, I had forgotten how enjoyable this game is.

Final Thoughts.

I am struck once again how much I am coming to depend on the @actuallyautistic community to help me progress on my ASD journey and understand more about me!

Special thanks to Ashley & Kevin for pointing the way today. 🙏

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Ello sweets!
First of all, don't stress getting the "labels" too much. While they can be helpful at times, nothing much will probably change once you have them...
In my experience, it helped me to get a better understanding of why I do things. I can explain my reasoning a bit better to friends and family.
But others won't treat you differently if they don't care to begin with... You'll still be who you are. There's no medical solution that can "fix" everything. Even without the official label, you can still be validated as being ND in more than one way. ITMS... 🤔
I did have some group therapy for the AuDHD and it didn't help me one bit... 😔 People even told me I used my diagnosis to have a reason to be an asshat 🤔 so it won't make that much of a difference to have the label, don't pressure yourself too much...
What helped me was to read about it, I read the easier books like the Dummy ones, as the more technical were harder for me. I tried to talk about it with people that supported me. My bestie even asked to read the dummy books so she could have a better understanding. 😊 But not all people are like that. Some will see the label as an excuse for your "bad behavior" towards them... 😔
Just wanna say, read, talk, explore and not stress about it.
Having an official label won't change who you are on the inside. And to many people on the outside, it probably won't make a big difference, unfortunately...

"Just" my experience since being diagnosed in early 2011. Things may have changed since then, maybe they're better in the UK than they are here... I went in for ADHD testing and came out with AuDHD in the end. But what helped me most was the self awareness. Why do I think and do differently and why that isn't bad or wrong, perse...

Sorry, long reply!!! Good luck 🍀 and I hope you'll find an inner peace with it all. Because that may help you to feel a bit more relaxed, perhaps. 🤗

💜🫶🏻

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You don't need to read them, they just helped me so that's why I mentioned them. 😊 No worries!

Some meds can help, but the kind of help is different for everyone and some people struggle more with the side effects than with the actual adhd bits. So there is no "guarantee" you'll "be better" with something like adhd meds... It could help, but ask yourself what you need "help" with first... If that makes sense 🤔
I was very hesitant with the meds for many years due to earlier side effects. I notice some difference with the meds now, but I also still struggle with my adhd bits from day to day...

You're very welcome 🌸 we're all different but I'm glad to share my experience and views, if that could help in any way... 🤗

@ashleyspencer @pathfinder @actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 205 , Monday 20/05/2024

Was up till the early hours of this morning with stomach cramps after last nights daring attempt to eat scrambled eggs & beans for tea.

Spent the day getting lots of exercise up & down the stairs to take a pew, if you get my drift.

Attempted to interact on here a couple of times but my brain is apparently on sick leave so it didn’t go exactly to plan 🙄🤦‍♂️

Hopefully tomorrow will be better !

Final Thoughts.

Is the babel fish truly a fish if it spends most of its life out of water ?
This & other great questions of our age will have to wait until I can think straight!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Hope you'll have a better night now. 🤗
Having a bug is no fun... 😔
Hey ho, let's hope tomorrow will bring some improvements 🌸
Have a good night sweets 😘

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 204 , Sunday 19/05/2024

Up around 8am , Sunday turned out to be a lovely sunny day , which I enjoyed, relaxing & recovering!

Caught up on Mastodon, there are some tremendous folk on here !

Still struggling with the old appetite , exhausted as buggery but I am defo on the way back up !

Apparently there are albino badgers out there ! This is a wonder of the world !

Final Thoughts.

You know when you’re a kid & you dream of your future …

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Never stop dreaming of a future.
And remember you may be able to give yours a direction with the choices you make...
At least that's what I am trying to do 😇
Take your vitamins, eat well, exercise some 😉 and hopefully it will all add up to feeling better soon!!!
It has for me, so I share this from my experience. We're all different of course. But I do believe with a healthier body also comes a wee bit happier mind. 🤗 😘
Have a good night sweets 💜🍀 and 🐶 👅 🐾 from Arwen 😉

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 203 , Saturday 18/05/2024

Ruff as a bears bum today, no energy, no appetite, everything I do hurts.

It’s probably only man-flu again, I seem to catch every bug going at the moment & regular Squirrel Spotters will be aware that I’m a bit of a wuss when it comes to common or garden illness. 🙄🤦‍♂️

I keep plodding along, hoping that I catch a break at some point.

I am better this afternoon, this morning I felt like death warmed up, lunch was 5/6 of 2 rounds of toast - don’t ask - & tea will be venturing into the dubious gastronomic delights of a can of tommy soup.
I am a little brighter & well enough to write my diary, so that is an improvement.

Final Thoughts.

Please can someone hail a Delorean to transport me back to my 40s ?

I have to say that I am in total awe of those folk I know who live with chronic pain, chronic depression is a walk in the park in comparison, you peeps are the bravest folk I know!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Hope you'll feel better with some more sleep dear! 🤗
Chronic depression sucks, chronic pain sucks too... Very true as I fall into both categories. 😔
Maybe check if you're getting enough of your vitamins and such? Maybe a supplement or two could help you to be more resistant to all the bugs? I know my supplements help me... 😊 Could be worth to check out. 😊
Have a good night sweets 😘

@actuallyautistic

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Oof I guess the Chinese and pizza don't exactly hold many vitamins nope... Nor will it be effective to help Woof in the right direction. 😔
Would be smart to get a wee bit healthier foods in there or at lest some helpful supplements to get some of the needed vitamins at least....

Good luck 🍀
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Indeed!! Some vitamin E can help as well, together with Omega 3. Of the muscles are struggling as well, I would add calcium and magnesium (as I did in my supplements).
It's adviced to get as many vitamins from food, but when you can't, supplements are there to help!
It may take time to find the brands and types that work best for you, but less flu type days could be worth it! 🤗

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 201 , Friday 17/05/2024

The number of things that trigger me that I have to keep bottled up , for the sake of a quiet life ! l
Like her taking just the stuff out of the dishwasher she needs (sometimes moving other pots out of the way & then putting them back in the dishwasher ! ) & just the stuff she needs - generally to make her morning snack, which she then leaves for me to tidy away!
It’s even more triggering on days when she is working from home!
No wonder all motivation is dead well before mid-day!

Once upon a time men were criticised for going to work & leaving everything else to their wives, well I have news for the world, that never went away & has achieved true equality! Certainly in our household!
It’s 09:12 & my day is fecked & I still have the dishwasher to empty, her dishes to wash / put in the newly emptied dishwasher & then hang out the laundry.
Don’t get me wrong I fully appreciate that I have to contribute , but I never signed up for this & I don’t know how to tackle it.
GP suggested marriage guidance - yeah sure that’ll work well with my autistic nature & dislike of humaning !
Sometimes it’s all too much & I just want my head to explode & get it over with !

Oh now I’m coughing & aching all over, gimme a break !
Seems I’ve come down with another bug ! Achy, stomach rebelling at the thought of lunch, freezing cold - got a warm top on and wrapped in a blanket. Had a warm Ribena™ (my hot drink of last resort) which appears to have helped a little.
Is it normal for hot drinks to mean you feel colder when you initially drink them - my body thinks so at the moment!
Ahhhh !!! I cannot get a break this year !
And another thing my tinnitus is so loud ! *grumpily snuggles deeper into blanket.
I refuse to go to bed at 13:54 on a moderately sunny summers day !
I shall kill baddies instead & hope I don’t die too much.

Ok it’s 18:30 I’m on the brink of falling asleep.
No appetite , which is a damn shame it being pizza night!

Final Thoughts.

I’ll be the one at the taxidermist….

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Sorry the marriage is shitty like that... The same happened when I wasn't able to work anymore and my hex was.... I got all the chores and complaints when they weren't done... After all, I had the whole day to do them... Never mind why I could not work anymore.... 🤔
So I totally understand... And I'm sorry... 😔

Hope you'll feel better soon!!

Digital huggies, don't wanna get the lurgies 😂, and boops from the two of us! 🐾

@actuallyautistic

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Hahahaha 😂
The power of AI... 😉
Nope definitely don't eat it.. 😂

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🤗 😘
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 201 , Thursday 16/05/2024

Up early again , the weather was miserable again, bouts of heavy rain interspersed with showers in the very occasional burst of sunshine.

The weather absolutely affects my mood, so it has been a challenge to interface with the world today.

At least it’s still fairly warm, having the windows open, if only a little , is really nice for me, a bit of a sensory high. 😊

Final Thoughts.

A quiet early summer day , with classic UK weather.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Ow yeah, weather definitely affects the moods!! Warm is nice, too hot isn't. Dry is nice. But some rains are needed at times as well... 😊 Preferably when we're inside 😇 haha!
Hope you had a decent enough day even with the English weather!
Have a good sleep sweets! 😘

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 200 , Wednesday 15/05/2024

Up early again , breakfast, chores , whole 9 yards.

I’ve been referred to the local cardiology dept for my dizzy spells , phone appointment next month, I don’t hold out much hope that they will get anywhere, but never say never hey !

Octopus Energy , after an initially promising start, have totally failed to get our smart meter system working properly. Both meters appear to be transmitting so that at least is an improvement but the IHD is only showing electric readings. In the latest episode the help desk lass - ‘Edna’ gave me the instructions to set up a budget …. Despite me sending her a photo showing that the IHD is NOT seeing the gas meter at all!
I mean will setting a budget magically get the comms going between the gas meter & the IHD ? I think not !

Final Thoughts.

Why is it so hard to get seemingly simple things done in this world ?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Ello sweets! 200 days in eej? That's something! 😁

Oooof that'd not good! I do hope my energy provider won't mess up with the upcoming move! 😔 Reading about this does make me more anxious about everything that could go wrong...

Hopefully the doc will be able to help you... It would be nice to know what's causing the spells...

Have a good night sweets! Catch you when you're up again! (when I'm not driving mum around 😉)
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You're very welcome 🤗 😘
And thank you! I do hope so... 😊

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 198 , Tuesday 14/05/2024

Up just before 6am for some reason that will have scientists puzzled long after the Unified Field Theory is discovered!

Breakfast is done & coffee is drunk.
I sit looking at my TL & feeling a strange reluctance to engage. It’s not that anyone has upset me or that I’m particularly triggered by a toot . I just shy away from interaction with the rest of the Fediverse.
Some of it is that I feel overwhelmed by the number of folk I have to respond to - I have to respond to everyone who mentions me or who greets the world at large, it’s an unconscious imperative for me.
Most days I love this level of interaction, it energises me & elevates my spirits, but not today.
I will engage with folk, because I feel that I will failed them & myself if I don’t.
Maybe a shower first though, prevaricating ….

Ok so the day got better & SM was engaged with !

Hit Fo4 this afternoon then the usual evening activities.

Final Thoughts.

Ok struggling at the moment , thank Nuggan it’s warm & mostly sunny otherwise it might be quiet grim!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Hopefully you had a decent day.
I get it... Low spoons make it hard to even do something like social media. I also feel I should reply as soon as I can... Thats why I always feel sorry when I have notifications left when I need to go to bed... It feels like I failed my friends to chat with them... So when I'm up again, I always wanna reply ASAP then.
Yay for the good weather!! 😁 It was very hot here...
Yay for gaming as well. 😊
Hope you're having a good night sweets 😘

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You're very welcome! 🤗
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Good morning 🌸
Yeah I'm the same...
When I'm down I don't think I'd be any interesting so why would I write to bore others with it 😔
But I also feel guilty when I don't reply to sweet toots by friends...

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 198 , Monday 13/05/2024

Up early for some reason beyond this simple squirrels reasoning.
Tidied up after herself, did my chores & went for a walk in the warm early summer sunshine !

I cannot seem to find the impetus to get stuff done, I work best to a deadline & the only person pushing me at the moment is me, which would be fine but I have minimal motivation levels at the moment.

I’m wondering from day to day like a leaf blowing in the breeze, no direction, no purpose.
At least the days are warm now & a lot sunnier, saving energy is easier , my lone mission to drag our energy bills down is less onerous in the summer.

Final Thoughts.

I suspect that I am going through a depressive episode, I hope I come through to the other side soon.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Owww well... Yay for the nice weather and walk! And another yay for saving some energy 😉

I think my routine helps me to keep motivated to do things, that and I have Arwen to care for. But yeah, some days I'm just blah too and then the routine will "tell me what to do" haha. And sometimes it tells me to do to tomorrow, like the dishes 😇 Hihi...

Hope the weather will help you to feel better dear! Try to enjoy the little things in life as much as you can! 🤗

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 197 , Sunday 12/05/2024

Finally managed to get a lie in , up at 8am. Breakfast, a few chores & then got abused by the cats demanding brushing & snuggles !

It’s been a lovely warm day , have had a really relaxed day.

Currently waiting for the promised thunder storm … I love a good thunder storm but have been sadly disappointed recently !

Final Thoughts.

Is it time for bed yet ?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Owwww relaxing is nice. That's a long lie in! That's why I missed ya in the morning 😉 Hihi...
Lovely weather is always a treat. We're supposed to get thunder this evening. 😊
Have a good start to the new week sweets! We're already going to halfway being May already. Time flies! 🌸
🤗 Have a good night sweets 😘

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 196 , Saturday 11/05/2024

Woke up around 6:30 to the sound of Oliver exercising his lungs again & Mrs S. deciding that stupid early was a good time to get up on a Saturday!

It has been a gloriously sunny day, I have had the patio doors open & passively enjoyed the warmth.

MiL is still in hospital , she is ok , just awaiting discharge which is currently due on Monday.

It has been a quiet day.

Watching ‘Shang-Chi & the legend of the 10 rings’ , not a bad movie at all.

Final Thoughts.

I hope I get to see the Aurora tonight !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Yay for the good weather! 😁 And that's not too early to get up 😉 (says the silly Pixy haha).
Yay for the mil doing ok enough to head home soon. Hopefully she won't be a burden on you too much...
Glad you had a good day!
Haven't seen any beautiful lights here, even though I am awake during the night... Maybe I'm just unlucky or it's not visible here... Hope you get to see it!
Have a good night sweets 😘 🤗

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I was up the whole night but unfortunately no lovely colors to be seen here 😔

Maybe some night I'll be lucky enough to catch a glimpse. 😉

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