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PixysJourney

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Howdy, I'm Cynni Pixy (nicknames obviously). I've got several other accounts but they have different specific goals. Here I want to share my journey through life.

My avatar is a cartoon image of my dog, surrounded by rainbow colored hearts. She's a brown Labrador with greying snout (age 10).
My header is a picture of my Labrador resting her head on a couch side.

Soon: #PixysHouse for all the crazy house updates.

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 245 , Saturday 29/06/2024

Just another day in paradise (to quote Phil Collins)

I spent all day ‘chasing the elephant’ -> stop , think where we are , got it ? Right , good, I’m glad we got that sorted !😆

It was too close to being a chore today , I don’t like being pressured into doing stuff, by myself or others.

I did have a good time though, had a lot of laughs with loads of Peeps , who enrich my life beyond all expectation!

I may take tomorrow ‘off’ & just play on the PS5 or read , there is such a thing as ‘too much of a good thing’.
I would hate for my brain to perceive SM as a requirement , rather than a pass time.

Final Thoughts.

To Toot or not to Toot, that is the question,
wether tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous dad jokes, Or to take arms against a sea of memes…

(Apologies to The Bard 😋)

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Owwww too much of the elephant 🐘? But they're so wonderful.... I just love elephants... I even adopted an orphan for a while... (if I had the funds, I'd still adopt one now, the Sheldrick Trust in Kenya is awesome.) 😊
But yeah, you're a popular master Skwerl, so that's a lot of work! I don't even have half of the friends you got and it can be a lot of "work". It's fun!! But when the spoons are low, it can feel harder to be able to catch up with it all. 🤗

Owwww gaming sounds sooooo nice!! I'll have to get stuff to my parents car later today, but they predict rain till about 11 here, loads and loads of rain... Ugh... Me not likey... So hopefully it will be dry for a bit when I have to pack the car. 😊

Have a good night sweets 😘 hope you're having wonderful dreams... 🤗
Catch you when you're up again! Let's chase the elephant 🐘 so we can catch it for loads of cuddles! 😁

@actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 244 , Friday 28/06/2024

A really rough & disturbed night last night, the windows were open to keep the room cool but there was a decent wind & that was making a din. The PF in my right foot decide that it was jealous of all the attention Geoff has been getting & played up all night!

Thankfully today has been a quiet day , no dramas , or need to interact with anyone .
Spent a chunk of the day in the Fediverse chasing the elephant. 😊

Pizza & Thatchers zero for tea & a bit of a Supernatural fest.

Final Thoughts.

Peace - the most elusive of gifts for the ND mind I think .

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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@Tim_McTuffty
Booh for the bad night and your foot being annoying...
Yay for the quiet and restful day!
The Fedi sure can be a nice place to unwind and have fun! 😁
Hope you're having a good night sweets!
Maybe I'll catch you when you're up again! 🤗 😘

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 Ello sweets! 😘

You're very welcome 🌸

And I'm glad you like it. 😊

Haha naaaah you've been hiding in that stash of nuts and I didn't have the energy to dive in 😂

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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@Tim_McTuffty
😂 There he is!!! 😁
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 243 , Thursday 27/06/2024

Up around 6am after a disturbed night.

Achieved a couple of things today managed to descale the coffee machine , I was gonna clean it but that is not one of my favourite jobs so I fixed the kitchen tap which has been sticking for a while instead.

I also managed to rearrange the appointment with Beth, the MH Practitioner.

The sock aid that the Occupational Therapist recommended arrived today, I am officially old !
It doesn’t help that I went for the one with the nice fleecy lining rather than the cheaper plastic ones 🤦‍♂️
Today the sock aid , next week the zimmer frame!

On the whole today has been a much better day than yesterday.

Final Thoughts.

Life is such a rollercoaster, the best we can do is hold on for dear life !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 Yay for the chores!! It's always nice when you can cross some off the list... Today the sink, tomorrow the coffee maker, this weekend, the world! 😂 😉

Yay for the new appointment! Hope this time, you'll be at the right location and she'll be able to help you!
And yay for the sock help, hopefully you'll get used to using it soon. Mum has one for her support stockings (she's got lymphoma) and she says it helps her to be able to do it herself, which she loves.
And hey, were all getting old, at least we have helpful bits and bobs so we can get there without too much discomfort 😉

Have a good night sweets 😘. Hopefully I will catch you in the morning! 🤗

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
You're very welcome 🌸 🤗

Owwwww pesky little thing!!!

Fankoos 🫶🏻 you too sweets! 😘

@actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 242 , Wednesday 26/06/2024

TL:DR Occupational Therapy, socks & being geographically challenged !

Up around 5:45 , for those of you wondering about Geoff he has slunk off for now, satisfied that there are not enough puritans in my diet to trigger him!

Spent some time tidying up for the incoming visitor - shifted all the junk to my bedroom, which it turns out he needed to see 🙄🤦‍♂️

So had the Occupational Therapist round this morning a young chap, who was friendly & patient with my rabbiting on.

There is not a lot that he can do to help, mostly because as far as OT goes I don’t need a lot. He is going to discuss my case with the community MH team to see if they can help ( I hope Beth - who I was supposed to see today , see below, isn’t in that meeting ! ) .

He did say that he could try & help get past the agoraphobia & then help me with some of the more crippling social issues.

He also got me to order a sock aid - because I don’t have full mobility in my right leg & putting my sock on is frankly flipping annoying! So we will see how the sock aid helps. The one I ordered looks like an out sized sling shot 😆

I was due to see the Mental Health Practitioner at 15:00 today , sat at my local surgery for an hour before realising that she was sitting waiting for me 3 miles down the road at another surgery ! 🙄🤦‍♂️
Classic lesson in ‘read what it says in the text’ as opposed to letting autopilot run the show!

So now I have to wait to see if she will call me to book another appointment.

In my defence no-one in my local GPs surgery had the faintest clue if she was in the building or not!
If nothing else one wonders what they would have done in a fire or emergency situation 🙄🤦‍♂️

So now I’m stressed to buggery about missing the appointment & wasting her valuable time & her being, rightly, pissed off at me!

I’ve had time to calm down now so I’m just berating myself constantly for being a plonker!

Final Thoughts.

One of the possible co-morbidities of being Autistic is anxiety - & boy was mine triggered today.
Another on is ones mind shutting down under stress - & leading one to make really silly mistakes.
Ah well tomorrow is another day!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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🤗 😘 🫶🏻
Sorry about the mix up with the GP! That's a right bugger and I understand the anxiety involved!! So starting with the hugs!

Ow.... Mum has such a "slingshot" for her socks too. It took some getting used to, but she loves it as she's still able to do it by herself... So some practice and then you'd be able to do it better/faster, if all goes well!

One thing of ADHD/Autism (or AuDHD) can be the autopilot! I have been changing times slowly this week but my body and brain still function on the "old" internal clock, which normally can be good, but now, it's not... So yeah, seeing something and thinking you saw right because you "know" it, it happens... It's very buggery when it does though... So another hug 🤗 for ya!

Yay for Geoff keeping calm now! Let's hope the diet will help to keep him at ease...

Have a good night sweets 😘 hope you'll have sweet dreams! 🤗

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 You're very welcome 🌸

Owww nooooo that's a big bummer! 😔 Did you do anything to upset it? Or is it due to the weather changes perhaps?
Hope it won't get too bad! 🫂💜🫂
@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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@Tim_McTuffty
Best just jump around on the other foot then 😉 Hihi...
Hopefully there's something that could help you with it sweets!
Yay!!! That's good! 😁
🤗 😘
@actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 241 , Tuesday 25/06/2024

Up around 6am as per , house elf duties have to be done.

Once again I get to around 10am & very last drop of motivation has been driven from me.

Today is bathroom cleaning day.

I put out new towels, which herself put thru the washing machine , I really don’t know what she does with them but they end up in the airing cupboard so stiff you could use them as offensive weapons!

You would think I would be used to this after 25 years, but no, it still triggers me.

Along with all the other triggers of stuff not cleaned , stuff not put away properly & overfeeding the cats .. poof all the plans for today have been eroded away.

Still I guess I should be grateful ,we have a roof over our heads, a car to take us places & food to eat.
Many have so much less.

Just had a call from an Occupational Therapist, they wanna come round in the morning & assess me … eeek!!!
Then I have to go see Beth , the MH Practitioner who first suspected that I was ND & set me on this path.
I left frustrated last time because she failed to understand how triggering Mrs S. is.

Final Thoughts.

I don’t know what it is like for other couples , but I REALLY wish Mrs S. would treat this as OUR house not HER house.

I am really stressed about tomorrow, a stranger in the house judging me, judging the fact that I have not been able to do so many things around the house that should have been done!

Roast Squirrel anyone ?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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So sorry! But I totally understand. It was the same with the house I lived in, shortly, with my now hex... It was hers so, like you, I was the Dobby who was home and had to do the chores while she did her things and bossed me around... It was never good enough and if I asked for help, I'd not hear the end of it for days to come... 😔 So unfortunately, I totally understand... Having a partner that doesn't treat you with the respect you'd like is so.......... Yeah 😔.....

The therapist won't come to judge your home! They won't come to tell you off for struggling. And they'll probably have seen places many times worse! People with health battles sometimes have it very hard and they get to places that you and I can't (fortunately) imagine...

And it can be hard for others to understand our triggers, maybe after more talks with her, Beth gets to know you better and she'll get a better feel of the situation. Of course they always think some exaggerating is happening, so they tread carefully... I've had the same thing happen... I told the therapist what triggered me with my hex and she just ended up praising the hex (who was with me) for all she did for me... 🤔 So yeah... Been there too... 😔

Hopefully, you've had a good evening after Mrs S went to her room and you got to relax! 🤗 Have a good night sweets! 😘

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
No worries, I've not been online this afternoon anyway, as I was just too exhausted...
Owwww I'm glad you got a new appointment, make sure to be at the right location this time!! 😁 🤗

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 😘 Fankoos 🫶🏻
Yeah, it's almost August, right? 😉

You're very welcome 🌸 🤗
@actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 240 , Monday 24/06/2024

TL:DR

Up around 6am having slept fairly well.

Sorted out the bins & various other chores & then settled down to catch up on Fediverse frolics!

So two things drifted across my mind today:

Firstly I was preparing salad yesterday & as is my occasional wont I mistook the tip of the ring finger on my left hand for a radish & merrily sliced into it with a very sharp knife!
Understand that this was not a deep or in any way heath threatening cut, it was a tiny cut that , after about 12 hours with a plaster round it is more or less healed.
My point is this , it hurt like buggery & bled like I’d hit an artery! What is it about ones fingers that this should be? I mean I know that I’m on blood thinners for the old Ectasia but really you see folks on ER with their limbs hanging off who don’t bleed as much as a when you cut the tip of your finger! Also I know that that ones finger tips are full of nerves but come on - a little sense of proportion wouldn’t go amiss !

Secondly Brits , like my good self, are renowned the world over for our favourite topic of conversation , namely the weather! Hey we live (currently) in a temperate climate & have a lot of weather!!
I say we converse, lets be honest here what we do generally is complain about it , we have mastered the art of chronic bitching in fact ! It’s either too cold , too wet , too foggy & rarely too hot!
For the last 2 days the country was nearly silent (apart from the footy fans , but let’s not go there!) why - because for 2 days we passed thru the eye of the storm (pun intended) & hit 20ºc , with sunny weather !
This is pretty much the ideal temperature for your average Brit, so we were, temporarily stumped! How could one complain?
Today the temperature continued up so normal service was resumed & we explored the unusual concept of hot , dry (if muggy) weather!

Struggling to concentrate on pastimes today again, I need to get back in there on the gaming front, the ‘Adrift’ NMS expedition needs completing before I run out of time !

Final Thoughts.

Summer is finally here, warm weather, salads & the sounds of the local brass band practicing in the background. Still there’s bound to be something to complain about 😆.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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Yay for the chores being done!
A booh for trying to amputate your finger! Silly master Skwerl... 😉 But yeah, fingers are awful to have cuts in! So ouch and all...

The weather here went from average temps, with colder nights and way too much rain, to high temps... A big swing the next few days. So for a few days we complain it's too hot and then it'll probably rain loads again, so business as usual then here 😉.

Yay for NMS! I should have internet at the house before I even properly move in, so if it's as good as they say it is... I should be able to game as soon as I'm settled! All the NMS toots I've seen make me wanna explore some again.... 😊 Just silly jumps and exploration, preferably with the fave Skwerly dude... 😇

Have a good night sweets 😘 using one go the newly made images for you. 😉

@actuallyautistic

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Aaaah ok, that's a plus but still a bummer then.

Indeed the weather is crazy! 28°C expected here today... I like warmer weather but 24 is enough... 😉 But indeed definitely no heating needed. Pretty soon, we want airconditioning 😂 of it gets too hot to properly sleep...

Awwww yay!!! Can't wait!! First just the minor thingie of a move that's in the way of gaming... 😉

🤗 😘 🫶🏻
@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Euh..... Well..... I wish I could... But... Nope... 😂

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 239 , Sunday 23/06/2024

Got a decent nights sleep last night Geoff behaved himself which was nice.
Up initially around 4am , had a chat with a dear friend & then managed another hour or so snoozing , finally getting up around 8.

On the whole not a bad day.

So I get loads of notifications on Mastodon because I like to interact with as many folk as I can, it can take hours to catch up sometimes. I have the time most days so this is not a problem. Sometimes though it is hard for me to do more than just answer with a hug or a smile because it is hard for me to formulate answers that will not offend or seem glib or cutting.
My autistic mind makes me blunt, it makes me say things that lack social subtleties , it makes me see over familiar or too distant. So when I cannot come up with response that I feel will be acceptable I fall back onto smiles & hugs to show I care hopefully.
Also there are only so many hours in a day , when one has 200 toots to respond to then sometimes brevity is required.
I was criticised for being too brief today, all I can say is I’m sorry ,I’m only a small squirrel of Pooh bear like intelligence & I try my best.

Final Thoughts.

I was playing around with Mona (the Mastodon app I use ) today & have managed to lose all my user notes that I used to keep track of time offsets & nicknames , birthdays etc. Very frustrating because they were crucial;l aids for one such as I with the memory of a concussed goldfish!
Hey ho.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
🫂 💜 🫂
I'm sorry if you meant me with the criticism! 😢 I was just eager for your thoughts on some things... As I respect your view on things, and when it was "just" a hug, I was a bit disappointed, because I would have loved your view on what I'd shared!! So it was bad communication from my part I see now!! Sorry, my AuDHD also struggles with being clear in my feelings and wording them.... I never meant to hurt or offend you... It was my disappointment that made me explain it wrong. As said, I value your opinion loads so was eager to read your thoughts!! Sorry of I didn't explain this well enough, making you feel like this.... Now I feel ashamed because I never meant to make you feel so bad about it 😭 so sorry! 🤗 It was my disappointment not making me explain it right....
Hope this explains my reasoning behind my (probably) blunt message and you now know why I was like that. So sorry.... 😔

Glad that you had a good day, besides the bluntness of a certain stupid Pixy 😔
Yay for a chat and some extra sleep!
Booh for losing the notes 😔
I had thought you'd mention the garden work as you said you were proud of the hard work. 😊 So I'll just say a well done on the "not mentioned here" garden work!

Hope you're having a good night sweets 😘 and again, sooooo sorry for not explaining my disappointment well enough and making you feel this way... 😔

@actuallyautistic

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Fankoos 🫶🏻 for the long reply!
Guess it was indeed too spicy folks struggling with their emotions and social skills and we went bump! I'm glad that we can talk about it, and that we both realize that we didn't mean any harm... It was just us being clumsy and awkward, well, me at least.... 😔

Sorry!! I wish I could go back and use my words better...

Hihi you're very welcome on the gardening bit. 😊 Yeah I was surprised you didn't mention it, as you seemed very pleased with your work. 😊

I'll try to word my reactions better, and not react directly when I feel silly emotions bumping around. 🤗

Have a good day dear! 🌸 😘 🫶🏻
@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 Fankoos 😘 I'll do my best.
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 238 , Saturday 22/06/2024

I was up at just gone 6:30am far too early for a Saturday but it’s less hassle to make breakfast for both of us than it is to do it any other way.

My feet seem to be improving , walking around barefoot (well in socks but same difference) with not too much pain.

Today has been quiet, mostly floating around the Fediverse , a little reading. Some chores so the house is vaguely habitable.

Tried some alcohol free cider tonight , let’s see if Geoff complains later!

Final Thoughts.

Just enjoying the moment.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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Well, this silly Pixy thinks it's definitely not too early to get up 😉 haha... But I'm weird 😇
Yay for having some good times on Masto, it's always nice to catch up with lovely people... 😊
Yay for Geoff behaving, maybe he'll get to stay then 😉
Hopefully the alcohol free cider will do the trick for ya!
Have a good night sweets! Sweet dreams 🤗

@actuallyautistic

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You're very welcome 🌸
Glad you like it, I need some new ones soon to use for my toots. 😊
Fankoos 🫶🏻 I had a good night, just got woken by an ambulance in our street. But it was 18 minutes till the alarm, so not too bad. 😊
@actuallyautistic

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 237 , Friday 21/06/2024

Geoff was a good lad last night , the fact that he was medicated into oblivion might explain why 😆

Up at around 6am to find Friday was a glorious day !

Loads of sunshine today had the patio doors open right up to the moment when Mrs S. decided she was going to bed at 8pm (her usual time) & closed them. Seems my enjoyment of the sounds of nature and the lovely evening air are not a factor. 🙄🤦‍♂️

Finished the migration of MAJ1 to Beige.Party by shipping across the followers list , this all worked fine & there are just some pending follows outstanding.

I did a few little tasks today nothing too extravagant. Made best use of the bright sunshine by running the clothes washer thru a maintenance wash amongst other things.

Final Thoughts.

I would really like to go to the coast, but herself is too busy (reading) & Geoff would object at the moment, maybe later in the summer!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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🤗 Sounds like a decent day! I wish we had such lovely weather. We started with some sun but it quickly got very cloudy and in the afternoon and evening, there was some rains....
Yay for medicating Geoff into oblivion... I told you about cutting him off, but you didn't seem too happy about that.... You'd probably miss the sod 😂 Hihi.... (j/k).
Yay for the chores and Booh for Mrs S who just lives in her own world, as it seems...
Have a good night sweets 😘 sweet dreams and hopefully I can catch you again tomorrow! 🤗

@actuallyautistic

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Good evening Squirrel Fans.

Oooooh all these LOVELY characters!

I can do some stonkers of quotes now😊

Tonight’s quote describes my original copies of ‘The Colour of Magic’ & Hitch-hikers Guide to the Galaxy.

“It looked like the sort of book described in library catalogues as "slightly foxed", although it would be more honest to admit that it looked as though it had been badgered, wolved and possibly beared as well.”
--(Terry Pratchett, The Light Fantastic)

Thank you to everyone who has tracked me down to the Beige & shared TLs again, you are all truly lovely Peeps.
Hopefully other friends will follow suite over the next few days.

Where ever you are in your day I hope you’re enjoying it! 😊🫶🐿️🖖

@weirdfolks @actuallyautistic

Todays diary entry is here: https://beige.party/@Tim_McTuffty/112650355705269274

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Have a good night sweets!!!
Hope all your friends will find you again. 😊 And maybe you'll make some new ones along the way as well, with all folks sharing your newly made toots! 😁
Sweet dreams 😴

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 236 , Thursday 20/06/2024

Geoff was subdued with a new course of colchicine yesterday then pain killers to make sur eye behaved overnight.

Was up late last night moving MAJ1 to Beige.Party, so many folks have sound him in his new home & shared timelines with him again , very chuffed !

The CDP 🧚‍♀️ kept me company, for which I am grateful 😊

My foot is a lot better today, I’m still favouring it & elevating it but it is getting there!

Spent most of the day flolloping around the Fediverse (keen Hitch-hikers will argue that only live mattresses on Squornshellous Zeta can flollop but I would argue Squirrels can too!)

Had posh fish n chips for tea, smoked salmon & salad with chippy chips ! Yummy & mostly healthy .

Final Thoughts.

My brain is trying to second guess my moving MAJ1 , wondering if it was the right thing to do, wondering if it would change the experience of the Fediverse .
I stamped hard on these thoughts & looked at the positive side, that folk have reshared my MAJ1 timeline , that peeps are engaging & that I have a second account where I can wax lyrical. 😊

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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Ello there sweets!
Yay for the move to beige with MaJ, it's a great instance, as you know 😉 hopefully you'll find all the sweet friends back to share the TLs with!
Booooh for Geoff... Still, just cut him off and be done with it 😂
Yay for good and healthy food!
And hopefully you're getting a good sleep now! 🤗
Maybe I'll catch you when you're up again 😘.

@actuallyautistic

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You're very welcome 🌸
Aaaand you're welcome again! 🤗
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I had an ADHD event this morning. I used to explain these away or blame them on external causes or other people.

If I’d taken my meds when I woke, I would’ve been fine, but I didn’t. I tried to do too much before leaving for my appointment, jumped on the wrong tram, had to call an Uber, then got confused about the meeting point. Rang my skin guy & was able to rejigger appointment, which gave me time for a decaf & a decompress.

My oldest has always been more philosophical than me on these things, better at accepting that it is what it is and then adjusting. I used to be good at doing that when others stuffed up (but maybe less patient with my oldest) but would get very upset about my own occasional dramas, maybe because underneath my externalisation of responsibility, I knew it was me.

But this morning I just accepted I’d stuffed up, did what I had to do & accepted that I might have to rebook the appointment. Fortunately they were able to juggle. The worst part is causing other people inconvenience. I’m acutely aware of that, maybe because of RSD? (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria)

Uber driver was a lovely Manchurian who has his skin check booked. 😊Currently waiting for anaesthetic to take effect.

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@Susan60
🤗 I'm glad it all worked out in the end. And I totally understand about the worries of being "inconvenient" to others when we make a mistake. I feel the same!
But good that you could let it go more easily, pick it up and make it all work out in the end. 😊
I hope the appointment goes well! 🌸

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@Susan60
Whoopsie 🤭 well, they did find you before they locked the place up for the night 😉
Hope all goes well from now on! 🍀

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 235 , Wednesday 19/06/2024

TL;DR Geoff hates me, misgendereation ,Mastodon moves are afoot, cats & the art of bird catching !

Geoff was a gut wrenching SoB last night, apparently standing for any length of time is a no,no. However I have his measure now & medicated his ass! (Do toes have asses ? ) so somewhere around midnight after some nice chats with a couple of lovely friends (who I how will still be friends by the end of this post🫣🤞🥰) I managed to get to sleep.

Up at just before 6am.

Started to make breakfast when yon OH opened the kitchen door to the garage & discovered Alice had brought a live present. So rather than shooing her out Mrs S. closed the door & looked expectantly at me, the vanished into the lounge closing all the doors behind her.

Turns out Alice had delivered a fledgling, which promptly vanished down the side of the washing machine! 🙄🤦‍♂️

As I was clearing a path to rescue the little perisher it did a 180 & vanished behind the washing machine , eschewing the more easily accessible (for me) space under the shelves next to the washer!
I pulled the washing machine out but the little sod (you’ll notice I’m becoming less enamoured with our uninvited guest) vanished behind the 6ft tall freezer next to the washing machine!

Pulling the washer out was hard enuf with 2 manky feet , especially with Geoff being all swollen , the is no chance that the freezer is coming out!

So the state of play is that I have pushed the washer back , leaving a suitable gap between it & the freezer for yon tweety pie to escape if it so desires.

Obviously I still had to make breakfast & then sort out the dishes & empty the dishwasher after all this , as Mrs S. had to get ready for work (a process that takes an hour & involves a ½ hour rest on the bed! ) so I’ve come back to bed because I’m clean out of spoons.

So here’s the thing: My voice has never broken, it got a little deeper but it has to be said my voices matches my persona as a squirrel perfectly! I wonder if it is an autistic comorbidity ?

This has meant thru out my life being misgendered on the phone ! Even when I’ve confirmed my given name, which is very obviously male, callers that don’t know me often still call me Mrs …. It’s VERY frustrating !

I know my nature is to be kind & show emotions easily & to expess love for anything that doesn’t get away fast enuf but that’s because I am kind by nature, I was brought up to be thoughtful of others , I am woke as it is possible to be , & also it is a defence against the horror that is me in full autistic frustration mode , my temper is like a bomb going off on the few occasions I lose it 🙄🤦‍♂️

I also suffer from Trichotillomania which makes hair & body hair management a trial.

All these things seem to give the impression I’m not a red blooded male. Which I am. I simply lack some of the less agreeable traits of some ‘alpha’ males ! (I still wanna fly fast jets though ! 🤣)

Really anyone bringing their dongle near me with the intention of amorous adventures or trying to stick me in a dress is not going to get far.

The really frustrating thing for me is that my natural instinct to identify as a CIS male means I cop for all the hate that is aimed at that group, despite the fact that when some folks interact with me without seeing my physical form they assume I’m something I’m really not!

I was talking to a good friend last night , no not you CDP 🧚‍♀️, & we were chatting about the whole hair thing … this isn’t about you ! (There’s a song in there somewhere ) Our discussion merely led me to think on this subject is all.

I wonder if I’ll be accused of being an misogynist off the back of this post 🤔

15:00 News update: the bird has left the building! The fledgling was a sparrow who about an hour ago got up the courage to fly out thru the open garage door - much to my relief!

In other news I have had a cardiology phone consult this afternoon with regards to the dizzy spells I keep getting when stressed. He is putting me on a halter monitor for 48 hours to see what is going on. He is not particularly optimistic that a resolution will be found , but he says my heart is strong so there is nothing to worry about unless the monitor shows something.

I’m quite proud of myself tonight, I actually got some stuff done this afternoon that has been waiting for a while.

Updated the router firmware & reconfigured the VPN, set up a Proton mail a/c.

I also created a new main Mastodon a/c on Beige.Party, more news of that tomorrow when I have moved stuff over from Mastodonapp.UK

Final Thoughts.

One cannot predict what will happen to make or break ones day. For most folk it’s a case of deal with it & move on, for many ND folk it buggers up the whole day !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic wow that's a very loooong diary Tim! But I made it through and I still asked to follow your new beige Skwerly account 😉 Hihi! (with all three accounts, mind you!)

Yay for the bird being free!! Booh for Mrs Skwerl just leaving all the work for you! Yay again for the router bits. 😊 And yay for the new beige account! Will have to be careful to tag the right one now! 😉

Hopefully you're having a good night sweets 😘 big huggies and hopefully I'll catch you in the morning 🤗 (it is Germany grocery day, so I'll have a little less time for banter in the morning).

💜 Luv and boops from Arwen and me 🐾

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Aaaah is that how it works?? I thought you were testing out of you coupe really use all the chars on beige 😉 😂

Fankoooos 🫶🏻 🐾 💜
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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 234 , Tuesday 18/06/2024

Geoff was headed off at the pass last night & medicated into submission so I actually got some decent sleep!

Up at 6 to sort breakfast , then elevated Geoff for the rest of the day - read my book & floated around the Fediverse for a while.

There are moves afoot to get my MAJ1 a/c moved to Beige.Party , I like the freedoms of the 11k chrs , it’s very liberating !

I messed up tonight, I made salad for tea - I like to take my time so it usually takes a good 45 minutes .
Geoff does NOT like being stood on for 45 minutes ! He’s really swollen now!
It didn’t help that he got another 20 minutes being stood on after tea because herself cannot be trusted to wash greasy dishes or heavy duty stains like beetroot. There are days when single life is very appealing!

Looks like another round of the dreaded colchicine for me - I may leave it till tomorrow , see if he settles down overnight.

Got a phone appt with the cardiologist tomorrow vis a vis my dizzy spells , I’m not really holding out a lot of hope but hey…

Final Thoughts.

This is supposed to be my ASD diary, it’s turning out to cover a multitude of things !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic Owww yay for the relaxing and tasty foot... 😊 But booh for Geoff behaving like a bad toe! (some how bad ass has a better ring than bad toe 😂 but gotta stick to the facts!).
Ow I wish I could get my other accounts to beige too but I'd lose all the toots... And that would make me sad... Although I don't use the others as much as this one so I'll just stick around. 😊 If you do move, I'll boost the "moving toots" so everyone can find you again, as often some people get lost in a transfer, or so I've heard. 😊
Have a good night sweets 😘

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic Aaah yeah I knew it would need another email due to the login on the server. 😊
Let's hope they'll approve you soon!! 😁

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 233 , Monday 17/06/2024

Geoff was a vicious bugger last night he had to be evicted from under the covers & subdued with paracodol !

Had a nice chat with the CDP 🧚‍♀️ until around 1am when the pain relief fully kicked in & sleep overtook me.

Up at just after 6am to get breakfast for Mrs S.

Had to spend the day elevating Geoff to new heights , which seemed to impress him to a degree. I let the pain killers wear off thru the day so that I can reduce the risk of dependance. That said will be hitting them tonight because Geoff is an unforgiving toe it seems.

So talking to a couple of peeps today & my low selfesteem / Imposter Syndrome kicked in again.
I know logically that multibillion dollar companies don’t just let anyone play with their mainframes & critical systems. I know that few folks expertise covers the full breadth of computing related areas. But still I cannot help but feel a dullard in the face of a lot of my peers.
Possibly it is because I made career critical decisions based on incomplete knowledge (ie I was autistic) that within a decade laid waste to my professional career & broke me to the point of having to retire early on health grounds.
It could also be that I am my own worst critic & still berate myself for not doing better then, & now.

I fear that all I am doing now is treading water, waiting for the inevitable alternative to taxes.

Managed to get a few hours in on NMS for the first time in a few days. Finished the first of 4(5? ) phases & got a couple achievements in a few of the others .

Final Thoughts.

How can I think about moving into social circles where I can stress about whether a whole new group of people might judge me & find me wanting?

How do I not be like this ?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic Owwww I wish I had the right words to say.. But with this... I'm kinda useless/clueless... I've never felt like an imposter cause, AuDHD or not, I did the best I could with the jobs I did. And with or without the dx, my best was still all I had to give. So I don't know what I can write to make it better, sorry 🤗
I am glad you enjoyed some gaming again! Yay!
And I hope you're having a good night sweets!! I have the hospital in the morning, so I'll be driving mum around and all that... 😊 But I'll try to be online while we're waiting and all... 🤗 😘

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic
Then you are not an imposter! You gave all you knew and could. You tried all that they asked of you. And there's always gonna folks that know more, are better, are faster, are smarter... That doesn't diminish the work that you did! Heck, I'd feel bad all the time then as all the work I did was for unschooled peeps 😔
The bits that you did, the things that you do, you're still good at! Maybe, because you're not in the business anymore, your knowledge has faded some and maybe it's outdated some. But you still do the automation things in your home. I still walk to the light switch, I still manually do the curtains 😂 so you know so much more! You even made a program to get the Spotify I share to your Apple and vise versa... You do know stuffs!!! 🤗
Hope that helped! 😘

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@ketmorco @Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic 👍🏻 that's what I meant with my reply as well... There's always people that are "better", but there's also loads that are "less"... It's not a competion... I wanna know things so I'll research them. But I do that for me, not because someone else may already know more... If that makes sense...

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 232 , Sunday 16/06/2024

Woke to a gloriously sunny Sunday morning, with clouds lurking around the edges ready to pounce later in the day.

Got my act into gear around 8am & tumbled out of bed, made breakfast & then relaxed over my coffee until it was time to get showered & changed to cross the hills to Liverpool & visit my brother to celebrate his birthday.

The trip across was thru torrential rain that did not really ease up until we approached the NW coast. The the clouds broke & the sun came out.

We had a great day, I enjoyed it more than I expected to.

My sister was the only fly in the ointment, she is mother to my 2 autistic nephews, she herself is NT , however she started lecturing me on what I was & wasn’t capable of, saying how much more she understood about being autistic than I did …. I was good & kept my peace.

There was lots off lovely food, my Bro is a bit of a BBQ fanatic, not as enthusiastic as @kaybee335 (who is a BBQing god IMHO) but does throw together a mean spread!

I was fairly good, Geoff behaved himself most of the day & I didn’t want to aggravate him too much so just had a little bit of everything & didn’t go mad.

Had the first piece of cake since Easter! It was heaven!

Herself decided that 6:30pm was late enough & that we should go home, to be fair we did have a 2 hour drive home & tomorrow is a work day!

The drive home was ,in stark contrast to this morning’ a lovely drive, fine weather & only got stuck in traffic once. Some nutter in a white transit gave us a scare by overtaking us (me doing the speed limit was just too slow for him! ) in an extremely dubious location & nearly ploughed into the bonnet of the oncoming car for his trouble. I am not too proud to say that I was thinking my time was done for a few seconds there because we would have been intimately involved. His reward, because it was only a 2 lane highway with very few passing places , was that he stayed in the same place in front of us for the next 5 miles until our paths parted ways.

Got home & texted my Bro we had got home safe, he was a little upset to learn that we had had sunny weather all the way home & that we are enjoying a sunny evening as I write. Apparently it started raining ½ an hour after we left. 😆

Final Thoughts.

I enjoyed today a lot more than I thought I would, it does the soul good to have a laugh & joke in the company of those we love.

Why do some NT folk think that they can know more about ND folk than ND folk themselves ???
I am blessed that pretty much all the NT folk I know in the Fediverse do not do this, realising perhaps that while some experiences are very much shared , some really aren’t!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
Sounds like it wasn't a too bad day for you dear. I hope Geoff behaved himself... 😊
Sorry about the NT knowing about ND more... It's a struggle for sure. And you'll probably run into that from time to time... 😔 But yay for not biting and getting into that! Well done. Let her think that while you know that you know better 🤗.
Sorry also about the stupid driver being such a fool... I've recently watched some dashcam vids and some people are just nuts! Eeeeek 😳!
Have a good night!!!
😴 Sweet dreams MLS 🫶🏻

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic you're very welcome 🌸 and yeah.... Some... Do.... 🤨

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 231 , Saturday 15/06/2024

So Geoff (you remember Geoff, the Gouty Great Left Toe ) was an asshole last night, ended up with him going commando stuck out the end of the bed!
Thankfully being evicted from the bed was enough to calm him & sleep ensued.

Up around 7am, breakfast, chores & knocking around the Fediverse for most of the day.

Out of the blue my Dad rang - he very rarely calls, but like me he is polite to fault & was calling to say thank you for his Father’s Day card.

I’ll catch up with him tomorrow when we go over to Liverpool for my Bro’s birthday.
Geoff is almost certainly gonna disapprove come Monday morning!

Watching Roadhouse (the new version) this evening, a surprisingly good , turn yer brain off movie, lovin the soundtrack too, I hope it’s on one of the streaming services !

Ohhhh on Apple Music! Cool !

Final Thoughts.

I’m a bit worried that I’m missing something - not felt the urge to hit the PlayStation in like 3 days …
Hey ho.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic that silly Geoff, just cut it off and be done with it :ablobcatangel: hihi....
But yay for some sleeps in the end!
Glad you enjoyed the TV time, relaxing can be so nice....
Shame about the gaming! I wondered why there were no NMS updates 😉
Ow how kind of your dad to call! Hope you have a good time at the bday tomorrow! 🤗
Have a good night sweets 😘

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic Owww you're still around 😇 you're very welcome 🌸

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@Susan60 @Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic haha out of context it may seem disturbing for sure 😂 but it was definitely meant as a joke 😇

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@Susan60 @Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic hihi 😉 he's calling his gouty big toe Geoff... And it was bothering him, so yeah, just chop it off 😇

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@Susan60 @Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic haha I'm glad you were to find out that it was all good. 😇 I can be naughty at times, but won't be that bad 😇 Hihi....

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 230 , Friday 14/06/2024

I am going to shamelessly nick an idea of a dear friend & my left big toe will henceforth be known as ‘Geoff the Gouty Great Toe! (Big toes used to be called Great toes back in the olden days seemingly)

An awful night last night I ate something that Geoff really disapproved of & he was not shy in putting forth his view ! I took his disapproval for an hour then medicated his ass with some codeine & paracetamol.

Up early this morning despite the disturbed night & Mrs S. being on holiday. Pavlov’s Squirrel !

Had a fairly easy morning & rested my poor,sore tootsies.

It struck me this morning in the light of the last couple of days entries that there is one major problem with yon Social Prescriber getting me to go to this Social Cafe …. They are not providing me with the tools to cope with this first!

One of my NT guides pointed out ,& I’m paraphrasing here, that just because I can do the whole socialising thing doesn’t mean I should. There is such a concept as ‘too much of a good thing’.

I remember the last time I was in a prescribed ‘social’ situation - attending the Cardio rehab course after my MI. Long story short , it was a disaster , I ended up storming out on the penultimate session because the social pressures were too much!

Today ,online, one of my prominent traits showed up - I can be very blunt at times, I fail to ease my point into a conversation - my NT brain proffering to ‘hammer home’ the point rather than be more subtle & gentle.
My ASD diagnosis report picks up on this & makes the point that it can ,& indeed has, trip me up in social situations!

If I decide that I really do want to move out of my current comfort zone into a more physically social one then I need to work with the various health professionals to get the sequence right & get the tool kit first!

Tonight I felt that I struck a decent compromise for tea. I did have pizza , but Ham n mushroom not a meat feast - I felt the latter might be taunting the gout gods just a little too much.

At this point Geoff is quite happy so long as I don’t try anything too athletic. Hopefully that will continue thru tonight!

Final Thoughts.

Geoff has made his views very clear on the whole diet thing, namely that he is in charge!

Is it a good thing or a bad thing I have anthropomorphised my big toe ? Is this an indicator that I should resist mixing directly with the rest of the human race?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic hey Tim, I think you wanna use the edit of Masto and change the NT to ND? Or did I misunderstood and you did mean NT? 🤔

Sorry about Geoff, though I did enjoy some chat time with ya 😉

Don't put too much pressure on being social though. Even people who struggle less with it don't always want or need it that much (or so I've been told 😉). Person to person is good but when you have online friends, they are real too! (except when they start saying silly things, like putting weird stuff on yon pizza 😂). It's still contact, even though you don't see/hear/touch and all... For me, I'd be lost without my online friends... They mean loads to me and I enjoy spending time with them. But the lovely thing about online is, for me, that I can engage when I feel like it. There is less pressure to immediately interact. ITMAS... 🤔

Have a good night sweets 😘 sweet dreams 😴

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic you're very welcome 🌸
And yeah, I do meet up with friends at times but I'm not too much of a "going out" person. Too many people, too much noise, often too many smells.... Big nope.
Much of my chats are online too and they're just great so I keep enjoying them as much as I can. 😊
Big huggies! 🤗 😘

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic you're very welcome 🌸 again 😉

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic you're very welcome 🌸 and fankoos 💜 for the huggies!

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 229 , Thursday 13/06/2024

A better nights sleep last nigh, although I did wake up early, had a nice chat with CDP 🧚‍♀️.

Mrs S. was in the office today & I really wasn’t feeling it this morning ,so after breakfast I went back to bed for a couple of hours.

My brain drove me out of bed just after 9am, unless I’m really quite poorly I cannot stay in bed for too long.

So I was reflecting on the meeting with the Social Prescriber yesterday & subsequent conversations with friends on here.
I wonder if I NEED to be more social than I am now. I wonder if the benefits outweigh the stress / anxiety etc. of being in a group of people.

Also the fact that any decent support is a decent distance away. (thanks UK Gov - so much for the promised improvement in MH services NOT !)

I am social to an extent, I regularly chat , laugh ,cry etc with so many lovely folk on here. Yes it is a relationship in a digital environment, but does that make it any less valid an experience?
The Fediverse is unlike any other Social Platform, it is possible to develop real friendships here & the lack of an algorithm makes for a more interactive experience!

Honestly I don’t know, when actually confronted with the help available, if it is worth pursuing.

On a more positive note I had a great banter session with several of the Peeps on here this afternoon / evening , thanks to all who participated, I enjoyed it enormously! 😊

Final Thoughts.

I never expect that I was fighting for so little, it is quite the anti-climax.
I am glad I got my diagnosis, that has helped me understand myself in ways I did not expect, & almost every day I learn something new.
Apart from anything else I found a whole group of Peeps who relate to & share experiences & challenges unique to ND folk!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 I don't think anyone "needs" to be more social! And heck, I feel you're chatting more on here with more folks than I do... So by those standards, you're more social than me 😉 and not doing that bad!
Yeah it can be quite a challenge to get decent (mental) health support, but I guess that's in many countries, not "just" yours. 😔
Just research the MH bits you're interested in. Read about the AuDHD, and things you recognize, you can explore some more. It's a broad spectrum, we're all different, and what works for me could work for you, but it also could be all the wrong things... I guess that's why they called it a spectrum, as we overlap at points but we also stand out in others in our own way (I hope I'm not offending anyone with this, just how I experience it).
Be you! Chat with friends! Lurk when you have to... Have private chats when it's too hard to have them "out in the open". Shout from rooftops or lovely Yorkshire hills if they're easier to get to.... Do as toy seem fit!
Just remember to be kind, to others and yourself (I know, the "yourself" bit I should do more myself... 😇).
💜 🍀 🤗
Take good care sweets... Just be you as you are, make sure you're healthy enough, fit enough, as a healthy body helps the mind as well. And with more spoons at hand, it's a bit easier to "people".
Just my opinion, I know... But you know I like to share if it could help... 🫶🏻

@actuallyautistic

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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic you're very welcome 🌸 🤗 🫶🏻
I hope any of it could have been helpful to you! 🤗 Good luck 🍀

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 228 , Wednesday 12/06/2024

Had a somewhat disturbed night, I experimented with having a full glass of water with my bedtime tablets to help hydrate me , what actually happened was rather than sleeping thru I was woken by the old call of nature around 3am & utterly failed to fall back into a deep sleep, tossing & turning for the rest of the night.
We won’t be making that mistake again unless there is conclusive proof it’s required (i.e. another gout flare up that can’t be traced to anything else!)

Finally got up around 6am , breakfast t etc ensued.

My feet are both sore , not cripplingly so, just enough to make walking unpleasant.

Spent a chunk of time on here today, honest I’m not addicted to Social Media 😆

Went to see a Social Prescriber this afternoon.
There are no services in local area that will be able to help me 🙄🤦‍♂️
The best she could off was a social cafe , with crafts & board games & coffee !
Is it me or does this smack of old peoples home ?
I have not said no , but we are going to review the situation in a month.

By chance Mrs S. in her official role received news of an Autism Hub that has opened this year about a hours drive away. So this maybe an avenue of opportunity.

Back on here again this afternoon / evening , currently expecting a spirited discussion on the state of UK politics on my other a/c.

Final Thoughts.

2 steps staggered forward , 1 step slipped back. Hey ho, it’s still progress!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney ,
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Glad the day went rather ok, even though the night was a bit disturbed... 😔
Hopefully you can find something that works for you. Maybe there's something to do online? Seeing your dislike for SM 😉 Hihi... You never know?
🤗 😘

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Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 227 , Tuesday 11/06/2024

Up around 5:30, breakfast & chores ensued.

Had to play taxi for Mrs S. so that I could have the car to go to the GPs appointment, I would normally walk, but given the gout flare up last week I chickened out!

This morning I went to see the Doctor who sorted my ASD assessment out for me, that man is a Saint!
So different to his colleague who was - ‘Nope cannot do anything for anyone at any time , certainly not if it costs money! ‘

Today was the first time in a very long time that I have come out of Drs appointment smiling!
We are on with sorting out the ADHD assessment, there are a couple of forms I have to fill out & a couple of forms he has to fill out then it’s a case of sending them off & waiting.

I am seeing a Social Prescriber tomorrow afternoon (I’m telling you Dr S (I know !! But hey that’s his initial 😆 ) is a freakin magician when he puts his mind to it! ) to set up a care plan .. dunno owt about that but I’m sure that I will know a lot more tomorrow !

Dr S. is also referring me to the Primary MH Practitioner - Beth - who I saw before the whole ASD journey started & indeed was the one that set my feet upon this path. I misjudged her last time when I thought she had just bundled me off to 3rd parties. I will approach our next appointment with more knowledge & I hope that she doesn’t hold a grudge.

Dr S. has also forwarded my diagnosis letter to the Community MH team , he’s not sure if this will help but at this point he is reaching out for me to all those who might be able to help!

And out of the blue my journey moves into top gear again!

14:00 - forms for ADHD referral are done, just need to drop them off.

Played NMS this afternoon, ticked off a few achievements then had to go & pick up Mrs S.

I dropped off the forms for the ADHD referral en-route - I’d like to say I jogged from the car to the receptionists desk & back, but the truth was much, much more ungainly!

Made a ham salad for tea with some new potatoes , it was a bit of a challenge because herself does not believe in buying anything more than she absolutely has to to feed herself. Hey ho, for all that it wasn’t too bad.

Finished the evening off with a bit of TV & catching up on here.

Final Thoughts.

A dear friend lost a close family member today, I won’t tag them , but they & those that share TLs with us both know who I mean. Lots of love my friend , know you are in my thoughts. 🫂 🫶

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic

EDIT: fixed a typo.

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