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Tim_McTuffty , 9 hours ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 243 , Thursday 27/06/2024

Up around 6am after a disturbed night.

Achieved a couple of things today managed to descale the coffee machine , I was gonna clean it but that is not one of my favourite jobs so I fixed the kitchen tap which has been sticking for a while instead.

I also managed to rearrange the appointment with Beth, the MH Practitioner.

The sock aid that the Occupational Therapist recommended arrived today, I am officially old !
It doesn’t help that I went for the one with the nice fleecy lining rather than the cheaper plastic ones 🤦‍♂️
Today the sock aid , next week the zimmer frame!

On the whole today has been a much better day than yesterday.

Final Thoughts.

Life is such a rollercoaster, the best we can do is hold on for dear life !

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
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PixysJourney , 6 hours ago

@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 Yay for the chores!! It's always nice when you can cross some off the list... Today the sink, tomorrow the coffee maker, this weekend, the world! 😂 😉

Yay for the new appointment! Hope this time, you'll be at the right location and she'll be able to help you!
And yay for the sock help, hopefully you'll get used to using it soon. Mum has one for her support stockings (she's got lymphoma) and she says it helps her to be able to do it herself, which she loves.
And hey, were all getting old, at least we have helpful bits and bobs so we can get there without too much discomfort 😉

Have a good night sweets 😘. Hopefully I will catch you in the morning! 🤗

@actuallyautistic

Tim_McTuffty , 1 day ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 242 , Wednesday 26/06/2024

TL:DR Occupational Therapy, socks & being geographically challenged !

Up around 5:45 , for those of you wondering about Geoff he has slunk off for now, satisfied that there are not enough puritans in my diet to trigger him!

Spent some time tidying up for the incoming visitor - shifted all the junk to my bedroom, which it turns out he needed to see 🙄🤦‍♂️

So had the Occupational Therapist round this morning a young chap, who was friendly & patient with my rabbiting on.

There is not a lot that he can do to help, mostly because as far as OT goes I don’t need a lot. He is going to discuss my case with the community MH team to see if they can help ( I hope Beth - who I was supposed to see today , see below, isn’t in that meeting ! ) .

He did say that he could try & help get past the agoraphobia & then help me with some of the more crippling social issues.

He also got me to order a sock aid - because I don’t have full mobility in my right leg & putting my sock on is frankly flipping annoying! So we will see how the sock aid helps. The one I ordered looks like an out sized sling shot 😆

I was due to see the Mental Health Practitioner at 15:00 today , sat at my local surgery for an hour before realising that she was sitting waiting for me 3 miles down the road at another surgery ! 🙄🤦‍♂️
Classic lesson in ‘read what it says in the text’ as opposed to letting autopilot run the show!

So now I have to wait to see if she will call me to book another appointment.

In my defence no-one in my local GPs surgery had the faintest clue if she was in the building or not!
If nothing else one wonders what they would have done in a fire or emergency situation 🙄🤦‍♂️

So now I’m stressed to buggery about missing the appointment & wasting her valuable time & her being, rightly, pissed off at me!

I’ve had time to calm down now so I’m just berating myself constantly for being a plonker!

Final Thoughts.

One of the possible co-morbidities of being Autistic is anxiety - & boy was mine triggered today.
Another on is ones mind shutting down under stress - & leading one to make really silly mistakes.
Ah well tomorrow is another day!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 1 day ago

@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 😘 🫶🏻
Sorry about the mix up with the GP! That's a right bugger and I understand the anxiety involved!! So starting with the hugs!

Ow.... Mum has such a "slingshot" for her socks too. It took some getting used to, but she loves it as she's still able to do it by herself... So some practice and then you'd be able to do it better/faster, if all goes well!

One thing of ADHD/Autism (or AuDHD) can be the autopilot! I have been changing times slowly this week but my body and brain still function on the "old" internal clock, which normally can be good, but now, it's not... So yeah, seeing something and thinking you saw right because you "know" it, it happens... It's very buggery when it does though... So another hug 🤗 for ya!

Yay for Geoff keeping calm now! Let's hope the diet will help to keep him at ease...

Have a good night sweets 😘 hope you'll have sweet dreams! 🤗

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney , 6 hours ago

@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 You're very welcome 🌸

Owww nooooo that's a big bummer! 😔 Did you do anything to upset it? Or is it due to the weather changes perhaps?
Hope it won't get too bad! 🫂💜🫂
@actuallyautistic

Tim_McTuffty , 2 days ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 241 , Tuesday 25/06/2024

Up around 6am as per , house elf duties have to be done.

Once again I get to around 10am & very last drop of motivation has been driven from me.

Today is bathroom cleaning day.

I put out new towels, which herself put thru the washing machine , I really don’t know what she does with them but they end up in the airing cupboard so stiff you could use them as offensive weapons!

You would think I would be used to this after 25 years, but no, it still triggers me.

Along with all the other triggers of stuff not cleaned , stuff not put away properly & overfeeding the cats .. poof all the plans for today have been eroded away.

Still I guess I should be grateful ,we have a roof over our heads, a car to take us places & food to eat.
Many have so much less.

Just had a call from an Occupational Therapist, they wanna come round in the morning & assess me … eeek!!!
Then I have to go see Beth , the MH Practitioner who first suspected that I was ND & set me on this path.
I left frustrated last time because she failed to understand how triggering Mrs S. is.

Final Thoughts.

I don’t know what it is like for other couples , but I REALLY wish Mrs S. would treat this as OUR house not HER house.

I am really stressed about tomorrow, a stranger in the house judging me, judging the fact that I have not been able to do so many things around the house that should have been done!

Roast Squirrel anyone ?

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 2 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 😘 🫶🏻
So sorry! But I totally understand. It was the same with the house I lived in, shortly, with my now hex... It was hers so, like you, I was the Dobby who was home and had to do the chores while she did her things and bossed me around... It was never good enough and if I asked for help, I'd not hear the end of it for days to come... 😔 So unfortunately, I totally understand... Having a partner that doesn't treat you with the respect you'd like is so.......... Yeah 😔.....

The therapist won't come to judge your home! They won't come to tell you off for struggling. And they'll probably have seen places many times worse! People with health battles sometimes have it very hard and they get to places that you and I can't (fortunately) imagine...

And it can be hard for others to understand our triggers, maybe after more talks with her, Beth gets to know you better and she'll get a better feel of the situation. Of course they always think some exaggerating is happening, so they tread carefully... I've had the same thing happen... I told the therapist what triggered me with my hex and she just ended up praising the hex (who was with me) for all she did for me... 🤔 So yeah... Been there too... 😔

Hopefully, you've had a good evening after Mrs S went to her room and you got to relax! 🤗 Have a good night sweets! 😘

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney , 6 hours ago

@Tim_McTuffty
No worries, I've not been online this afternoon anyway, as I was just too exhausted...
Owwww I'm glad you got a new appointment, make sure to be at the right location this time!! 😁 🤗

@actuallyautistic

Tim_McTuffty , 3 days ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 240 , Monday 24/06/2024

TL:DR

Up around 6am having slept fairly well.

Sorted out the bins & various other chores & then settled down to catch up on Fediverse frolics!

So two things drifted across my mind today:

Firstly I was preparing salad yesterday & as is my occasional wont I mistook the tip of the ring finger on my left hand for a radish & merrily sliced into it with a very sharp knife!
Understand that this was not a deep or in any way heath threatening cut, it was a tiny cut that , after about 12 hours with a plaster round it is more or less healed.
My point is this , it hurt like buggery & bled like I’d hit an artery! What is it about ones fingers that this should be? I mean I know that I’m on blood thinners for the old Ectasia but really you see folks on ER with their limbs hanging off who don’t bleed as much as a when you cut the tip of your finger! Also I know that that ones finger tips are full of nerves but come on - a little sense of proportion wouldn’t go amiss !

Secondly Brits , like my good self, are renowned the world over for our favourite topic of conversation , namely the weather! Hey we live (currently) in a temperate climate & have a lot of weather!!
I say we converse, lets be honest here what we do generally is complain about it , we have mastered the art of chronic bitching in fact ! It’s either too cold , too wet , too foggy & rarely too hot!
For the last 2 days the country was nearly silent (apart from the footy fans , but let’s not go there!) why - because for 2 days we passed thru the eye of the storm (pun intended) & hit 20ºc , with sunny weather !
This is pretty much the ideal temperature for your average Brit, so we were, temporarily stumped! How could one complain?
Today the temperature continued up so normal service was resumed & we explored the unusual concept of hot , dry (if muggy) weather!

Struggling to concentrate on pastimes today again, I need to get back in there on the gaming front, the ‘Adrift’ NMS expedition needs completing before I run out of time !

Final Thoughts.

Summer is finally here, warm weather, salads & the sounds of the local brass band practicing in the background. Still there’s bound to be something to complain about 😆.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 3 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
Yay for the chores being done!
A booh for trying to amputate your finger! Silly master Skwerl... 😉 But yeah, fingers are awful to have cuts in! So ouch and all...

The weather here went from average temps, with colder nights and way too much rain, to high temps... A big swing the next few days. So for a few days we complain it's too hot and then it'll probably rain loads again, so business as usual then here 😉.

Yay for NMS! I should have internet at the house before I even properly move in, so if it's as good as they say it is... I should be able to game as soon as I'm settled! All the NMS toots I've seen make me wanna explore some again.... 😊 Just silly jumps and exploration, preferably with the fave Skwerly dude... 😇

Have a good night sweets 😘 using one go the newly made images for you. 😉

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney , 2 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
Aaaah ok, that's a plus but still a bummer then.

Indeed the weather is crazy! 28°C expected here today... I like warmer weather but 24 is enough... 😉 But indeed definitely no heating needed. Pretty soon, we want airconditioning 😂 of it gets too hot to properly sleep...

Awwww yay!!! Can't wait!! First just the minor thingie of a move that's in the way of gaming... 😉

🤗 😘 🫶🏻
@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney , 2 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
Euh..... Well..... I wish I could... But... Nope... 😂

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Tim_McTuffty , 4 days ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 239 , Sunday 23/06/2024

Got a decent nights sleep last night Geoff behaved himself which was nice.
Up initially around 4am , had a chat with a dear friend & then managed another hour or so snoozing , finally getting up around 8.

On the whole not a bad day.

So I get loads of notifications on Mastodon because I like to interact with as many folk as I can, it can take hours to catch up sometimes. I have the time most days so this is not a problem. Sometimes though it is hard for me to do more than just answer with a hug or a smile because it is hard for me to formulate answers that will not offend or seem glib or cutting.
My autistic mind makes me blunt, it makes me say things that lack social subtleties , it makes me see over familiar or too distant. So when I cannot come up with response that I feel will be acceptable I fall back onto smiles & hugs to show I care hopefully.
Also there are only so many hours in a day , when one has 200 toots to respond to then sometimes brevity is required.
I was criticised for being too brief today, all I can say is I’m sorry ,I’m only a small squirrel of Pooh bear like intelligence & I try my best.

Final Thoughts.

I was playing around with Mona (the Mastodon app I use ) today & have managed to lose all my user notes that I used to keep track of time offsets & nicknames , birthdays etc. Very frustrating because they were crucial;l aids for one such as I with the memory of a concussed goldfish!
Hey ho.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 4 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
🫂 💜 🫂
I'm sorry if you meant me with the criticism! 😢 I was just eager for your thoughts on some things... As I respect your view on things, and when it was "just" a hug, I was a bit disappointed, because I would have loved your view on what I'd shared!! So it was bad communication from my part I see now!! Sorry, my AuDHD also struggles with being clear in my feelings and wording them.... I never meant to hurt or offend you... It was my disappointment that made me explain it wrong. As said, I value your opinion loads so was eager to read your thoughts!! Sorry of I didn't explain this well enough, making you feel like this.... Now I feel ashamed because I never meant to make you feel so bad about it 😭 so sorry! 🤗 It was my disappointment not making me explain it right....
Hope this explains my reasoning behind my (probably) blunt message and you now know why I was like that. So sorry.... 😔

Glad that you had a good day, besides the bluntness of a certain stupid Pixy 😔
Yay for a chat and some extra sleep!
Booh for losing the notes 😔
I had thought you'd mention the garden work as you said you were proud of the hard work. 😊 So I'll just say a well done on the "not mentioned here" garden work!

Hope you're having a good night sweets 😘 and again, sooooo sorry for not explaining my disappointment well enough and making you feel this way... 😔

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney , 3 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
Fankoos 🫶🏻 for the long reply!
Guess it was indeed too spicy folks struggling with their emotions and social skills and we went bump! I'm glad that we can talk about it, and that we both realize that we didn't mean any harm... It was just us being clumsy and awkward, well, me at least.... 😔

Sorry!! I wish I could go back and use my words better...

Hihi you're very welcome on the gardening bit. 😊 Yeah I was surprised you didn't mention it, as you seemed very pleased with your work. 😊

I'll try to word my reactions better, and not react directly when I feel silly emotions bumping around. 🤗

Have a good day dear! 🌸 😘 🫶🏻
@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney , 3 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 Fankoos 😘 I'll do my best.
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Tim_McTuffty , 5 days ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 238 , Saturday 22/06/2024

I was up at just gone 6:30am far too early for a Saturday but it’s less hassle to make breakfast for both of us than it is to do it any other way.

My feet seem to be improving , walking around barefoot (well in socks but same difference) with not too much pain.

Today has been quiet, mostly floating around the Fediverse , a little reading. Some chores so the house is vaguely habitable.

Tried some alcohol free cider tonight , let’s see if Geoff complains later!

Final Thoughts.

Just enjoying the moment.

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 5 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
Well, this silly Pixy thinks it's definitely not too early to get up 😉 haha... But I'm weird 😇
Yay for having some good times on Masto, it's always nice to catch up with lovely people... 😊
Yay for Geoff behaving, maybe he'll get to stay then 😉
Hopefully the alcohol free cider will do the trick for ya!
Have a good night sweets! Sweet dreams 🤗

@actuallyautistic

PixysJourney , 4 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
You're very welcome 🌸
Glad you like it, I need some new ones soon to use for my toots. 😊
Fankoos 🫶🏻 I had a good night, just got woken by an ambulance in our street. But it was 18 minutes till the alarm, so not too bad. 😊
@actuallyautistic

Tim_McTuffty , 6 days ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 237 , Friday 21/06/2024

Geoff was a good lad last night , the fact that he was medicated into oblivion might explain why 😆

Up at around 6am to find Friday was a glorious day !

Loads of sunshine today had the patio doors open right up to the moment when Mrs S. decided she was going to bed at 8pm (her usual time) & closed them. Seems my enjoyment of the sounds of nature and the lovely evening air are not a factor. 🙄🤦‍♂️

Finished the migration of MAJ1 to Beige.Party by shipping across the followers list , this all worked fine & there are just some pending follows outstanding.

I did a few little tasks today nothing too extravagant. Made best use of the bright sunshine by running the clothes washer thru a maintenance wash amongst other things.

Final Thoughts.

I would really like to go to the coast, but herself is too busy (reading) & Geoff would object at the moment, maybe later in the summer!

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 6 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
🤗 Sounds like a decent day! I wish we had such lovely weather. We started with some sun but it quickly got very cloudy and in the afternoon and evening, there was some rains....
Yay for medicating Geoff into oblivion... I told you about cutting him off, but you didn't seem too happy about that.... You'd probably miss the sod 😂 Hihi.... (j/k).
Yay for the chores and Booh for Mrs S who just lives in her own world, as it seems...
Have a good night sweets 😘 sweet dreams and hopefully I can catch you again tomorrow! 🤗

@actuallyautistic

Tim_McTuffty , 7 days ago to ActuallyAutistic group

Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 236 , Thursday 20/06/2024

Geoff was subdued with a new course of colchicine yesterday then pain killers to make sur eye behaved overnight.

Was up late last night moving MAJ1 to Beige.Party, so many folks have sound him in his new home & shared timelines with him again , very chuffed !

The CDP 🧚‍♀️ kept me company, for which I am grateful 😊

My foot is a lot better today, I’m still favouring it & elevating it but it is getting there!

Spent most of the day flolloping around the Fediverse (keen Hitch-hikers will argue that only live mattresses on Squornshellous Zeta can flollop but I would argue Squirrels can too!)

Had posh fish n chips for tea, smoked salmon & salad with chippy chips ! Yummy & mostly healthy .

Final Thoughts.

My brain is trying to second guess my moving MAJ1 , wondering if it was the right thing to do, wondering if it would change the experience of the Fediverse .
I stamped hard on these thoughts & looked at the positive side, that folk have reshared my MAJ1 timeline , that peeps are engaging & that I have a second account where I can wax lyrical. 😊

Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖

@actuallyautistic
#TimsASDjourney #ActuallyAutistic #Neurospicy #TheMammutMoves

PixysJourney , 6 days ago

@Tim_McTuffty
You're very welcome 🌸
Aaaand you're welcome again! 🤗
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