Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 241 , Tuesday 25/06/2024
Up around 6am as per , house elf duties have to be done.
Once again I get to around 10am & very last drop of motivation has been driven from me.
Today is bathroom cleaning day.
I put out new towels, which herself put thru the washing machine , I really don’t know what she does with them but they end up in the airing cupboard so stiff you could use them as offensive weapons!
You would think I would be used to this after 25 years, but no, it still triggers me.
Along with all the other triggers of stuff not cleaned , stuff not put away properly & overfeeding the cats .. poof all the plans for today have been eroded away.
Still I guess I should be grateful ,we have a roof over our heads, a car to take us places & food to eat.
Many have so much less.
Just had a call from an Occupational Therapist, they wanna come round in the morning & assess me … eeek!!!
Then I have to go see Beth , the MH Practitioner who first suspected that I was ND & set me on this path.
I left frustrated last time because she failed to understand how triggering Mrs S. is.
Final Thoughts.
I don’t know what it is like for other couples , but I REALLY wish Mrs S. would treat this as OUR house not HER house.
I am really stressed about tomorrow, a stranger in the house judging me, judging the fact that I have not been able to do so many things around the house that should have been done!
Roast Squirrel anyone ?
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
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So sorry! But I totally understand. It was the same with the house I lived in, shortly, with my now hex... It was hers so, like you, I was the Dobby who was home and had to do the chores while she did her things and bossed me around... It was never good enough and if I asked for help, I'd not hear the end of it for days to come... 😔 So unfortunately, I totally understand... Having a partner that doesn't treat you with the respect you'd like is so.......... Yeah 😔.....
The therapist won't come to judge your home! They won't come to tell you off for struggling. And they'll probably have seen places many times worse! People with health battles sometimes have it very hard and they get to places that you and I can't (fortunately) imagine...
And it can be hard for others to understand our triggers, maybe after more talks with her, Beth gets to know you better and she'll get a better feel of the situation. Of course they always think some exaggerating is happening, so they tread carefully... I've had the same thing happen... I told the therapist what triggered me with my hex and she just ended up praising the hex (who was with me) for all she did for me... 🤔 So yeah... Been there too... 😔
Hopefully, you've had a good evening after Mrs S went to her room and you got to relax! 🤗 Have a good night sweets! 😘
@Tim_McTuffty
No worries, I've not been online this afternoon anyway, as I was just too exhausted...
Owwww I'm glad you got a new appointment, make sure to be at the right location this time!! 😁 🤗
@Tim_McTuffty@actuallyautistic
OT won't be coming to judge. If you want to see things unfinished or not done, you should pop round here
Here's the corner of the living room that P is currently working on. I won't show you the opposite corner, which is FULL of knitting and sewing