Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 239 , Sunday 23/06/2024
Got a decent nights sleep last night Geoff behaved himself which was nice.
Up initially around 4am , had a chat with a dear friend & then managed another hour or so snoozing , finally getting up around 8.
On the whole not a bad day.
So I get loads of notifications on Mastodon because I like to interact with as many folk as I can, it can take hours to catch up sometimes. I have the time most days so this is not a problem. Sometimes though it is hard for me to do more than just answer with a hug or a smile because it is hard for me to formulate answers that will not offend or seem glib or cutting.
My autistic mind makes me blunt, it makes me say things that lack social subtleties , it makes me see over familiar or too distant. So when I cannot come up with response that I feel will be acceptable I fall back onto smiles & hugs to show I care hopefully.
Also there are only so many hours in a day , when one has 200 toots to respond to then sometimes brevity is required.
I was criticised for being too brief today, all I can say is I’m sorry ,I’m only a small squirrel of Pooh bear like intelligence & I try my best.
Final Thoughts.
I was playing around with Mona (the Mastodon app I use ) today & have managed to lose all my user notes that I used to keep track of time offsets & nicknames , birthdays etc. Very frustrating because they were crucial;l aids for one such as I with the memory of a concussed goldfish!
Hey ho.
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
@Tim_McTuffty
🫂 💜 🫂
I'm sorry if you meant me with the criticism! 😢 I was just eager for your thoughts on some things... As I respect your view on things, and when it was "just" a hug, I was a bit disappointed, because I would have loved your view on what I'd shared!! So it was bad communication from my part I see now!! Sorry, my AuDHD also struggles with being clear in my feelings and wording them.... I never meant to hurt or offend you... It was my disappointment that made me explain it wrong. As said, I value your opinion loads so was eager to read your thoughts!! Sorry of I didn't explain this well enough, making you feel like this.... Now I feel ashamed because I never meant to make you feel so bad about it 😭 so sorry! 🤗 It was my disappointment not making me explain it right....
Hope this explains my reasoning behind my (probably) blunt message and you now know why I was like that. So sorry.... 😔
Glad that you had a good day, besides the bluntness of a certain stupid Pixy 😔
Yay for a chat and some extra sleep!
Booh for losing the notes 😔
I had thought you'd mention the garden work as you said you were proud of the hard work. 😊 So I'll just say a well done on the "not mentioned here" garden work!
Hope you're having a good night sweets 😘 and again, sooooo sorry for not explaining my disappointment well enough and making you feel this way... 😔
It wasn’t meant as a criticism, merely a reflection on my inability to communicate properly. Worded badly. I’m sorry it upset you so. 😟
I think this is a classic example of 2 autistic folk proving that they have issues reading people & communicating effectively.
Human communication is seen as one of the most complex activities humans have to learn, to paraphrase Lorna Wing ‘it’s no wonder Autistic folk find it difficult’ . In those of us who have less obvious autistic traits, the failure to communicate effectively is often the giveaway I suspect.
NT folk will volunteer a “I struggle with communication too’ here but, as I discovered in my ASD assessment report, ND folk don’t just struggle because we either never learnt the skills or are ‘socially awkward’ although those reasons can apply too, we fundamentally have no concept of certain key components of human communication. We never developed them because our Neurospicy brains went off on a tangent.
Ironically a thought about sometimes needing brevity in my replies has lead to a fairly chunky response.
Thank you 🙏 it was not a bad day at all 🤗
It was late when I wrote the last of my diary entry so I had completely forgotten about the gardening at that point, but thank you 🤗🥰
I shall try harder to answer your toots, my CCDP 🧚♀️🥰
@Tim_McTuffty
Fankoos 🫶🏻 for the long reply!
Guess it was indeed too spicy folks struggling with their emotions and social skills and we went bump! I'm glad that we can talk about it, and that we both realize that we didn't mean any harm... It was just us being clumsy and awkward, well, me at least.... 😔
Sorry!! I wish I could go back and use my words better...
Hihi you're very welcome on the gardening bit. 😊 Yeah I was surprised you didn't mention it, as you seemed very pleased with your work. 😊
I'll try to word my reactions better, and not react directly when I feel silly emotions bumping around. 🤗
@Tim_McTuffty@HeatherMJ@actuallyautistic
G'night lovely 🐿️🐿️
Definitely what Heather said, us that know you, we know you!!
And we totally get you!!
Enjoy the rest of your evening XxXx