If I'm forced to submit to their company, I will generally just be quiet unless I have something pithy or relevant to say. I smoke a lot, so leaving the room is a good way to buy some sanity.
My patience, thin at the best of times, turns me into someone that just does not give a fuck how his words land. I hurt feelings, which isn't fun or pleasant for anyone and prompts me to just keep my distance more.
I know how mean I can be. Few people deserve that.
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic i gradually (and over time more and more) loose the ability to properly use and comprehend languages 😬. It‘s like my brain is too foggy to stay in language mode. It begins harmles enough that I just loose a few words in sentences but at a certain point it can make it impossible for me to concentrate on listening let alone holding up a conversation. It‘s like my brain needs a break from compiling languages if I people‘d too much.
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic I start looking around, noticing everything but the "people" (I have ADHD as well). It happened a couple of times last week. In one instance, I made up some lame excuse to leave after an hour. The second time it happened (2 days later), I was around people who knew me, and I was honest with them -- and they were fine with it. Much better to leave (or wander off), than to be overwhelmed or have a meltdown (sometimes it's a delayed reaction).
@theautisticcoach@actuallyautistic When I hit my fill line for "peopling" I find I tend to start to feel agitated and it's hard to pay attention to anything. I often start to disassociate from my surroundings. If somebody is really persistent with trying to engage with me when I'm done with people I can also react pretty negatively, and meltdowns are more likely to be triggered.